August 23-B, 2022

Another Hydrangea Oil Paint Rendered — 07/07/2007, State Street, Greensboro, North Carolina
A bad recollection of one of Issa's verses goes:
"The child, lost in a field at dark,
chases after fireflies, crying."

This is an image of us at our best.
Lost.
Distracted.
Crying.

It is not wise 
to make life-altering decisions
after 50.

Maybe after 40.

I'm talking specifically about
selling a house
and buying another one,
twelve miles and twenty-three minutes
away
(But twelve miles and twenty-three minutes
closer to the daughters and grand-daughters).

Sounds like something anyone could do.
Even a precocious child.

Well.

Four months away from having lived 78 years,
the slippage and lapses
do not need assistance
from distraction
and disturbance in the flow.

Flow is particularly important after 50.
Certainly after 60.
With today being comfortably similar to yesterday,
and tomorrow being a welcome extension of the two.

Almost 78 isn't known for keeping things straight
and in order.
But, it is great for looking forward
to a routine that is stable and trustworthy.

Maybe by the second week in November.

He said, toward the end of August,
chasing fireflies.

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Published by jimwdollar

I'm retired, and still finding my way--but now, I don't have to pretend that I know what I'm doing. I retired after 40.5 years as a minister in the Presbyterian Church USA, serving churches in Louisiana, Mississippi and North Carolina. I graduated from Austin Presbyterian Theological Seminary, in Austin, Texas, and Northwestern State University in Natchitoches, Louisiana. My wife, Judy, and I have three daughters and five granddaughters within about twenty minutes from where we live--and are enjoying our retirement as much as we have ever enjoyed anything.

4 thoughts on “August 23-B, 2022

  1. Shel Silverstein reminds us that “some kinds of help are the kinds of help that help is all about–and some kinds of help are the kinds of help we all could do with out.” I need help knowing which is which when its offered!

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  2. Beautifully and honestly said. May your fire flys not cause you grief, but wonder… hang in there, Jim. Almost home, again.

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    1. We’re doing well, with everything coming into focus and falling into place in a timely and routine fashion, but it’s still 8 weeks away from moving out and moving in and anything can happen at any time, but one situation at a time is the only way to do anything, from working a job to raising children, to learning photography (Or gardening). And, I would like to be there now. So we bear the pain, laughing at ourselves for expecting anything more. Ain’t that how it is, though.

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