We have to hear what we are saying in order to know--and be--who we are. Where do you go to hear what you have to say? To say what needs to be said? To know--and be--who you are? We are only allowed to say what is permissible to say. We can't say the truth unless it is a "truth" that someone else told us is the Truth and told us to say. We can only repeat what we have heard. We never say what we have to say. Where do we go to say the truth-- the truth that is who we are, that is what we have to say. Where do we go to say that? Where are we not allowed to do that? To say that? To say what is so, what is ours to say? How long are we to keep it "bottled up"? What happens to unsaid truth? Does it "dry up and blow away"? Do we dry up and blow away with it? How long before we are gone?
We do not--cannot--grow up without changing our mind about what is important. And being right about it. Being right about what is important and living in ways which honor it with liege loyalty and filial devotion is growing up. What do we owe fealty to? What is that important? We cannot buy that. Money is worthless when it comes to what is important. The people who think money matters most, who sacrifice everything in the service of money, don't have a clue. Here it is, laid bare: Living aligned with our original nature is the most important thing. In service to the virtues/shtick/genius/daemon/gifts that came with us from the womb. In accord with the time and place of our living. If you do not know what I am talking about, make it your life to know. Do not die without knowing. To die without knowing is to be doubly dead. We are dead until we know. We come alive in knowing and doing what is important. Make it your life to know and to do what matters most.
Hope is way over-rated. Jesus didn't give a damn about what his chances were. He came to say what he had to say and to do what needed to be done and let nature take its course-- and they killed him for it. For not knowing his place. For not minding his manners. For not caring what his elders thought. For not stopping just because it was hopeless... Jesus spoke out of turn and did what was unthinkable. "Be a neighbor to everyone, even Samaritans. Even women. Even women caught in adultery. Even transgender women. Even women who have to have an abortion. And to everyone else who needs a neighbor. YOU are the neighbor! Go be one to everyone who needs one!" Whether it does any good or not. Be good for nothing! The way Jesus was! And live to say and do what you came to say and do. If you have no idea what is yours to say, and what is yours to do, if you are just saying what somebody says you are supposed to say... if you are just doing what somebody says you are supposed to do... wake up! Look around! Find something that needs saying and say it! Find something that needs doing and do it! That. Is. All. There. Is. To. It!!!
Everybody is pissy and snarly when their life isn't working. When they don't know what it would take for their life to be working. Who are at loose ends, lost without direction in the wasteland of their own making. "Pissy" and "Snarly" are everywhere these days. The sure cure for pissy and snarly is simple: The right kind of emptiness, stillness and silence. Three things pissy and snarly cannot tolerate are the right kind of emptiness, stillness and silence. All of their loose ends and their lostness and the stark, barrenness, of the wasteland become apparent in the right kind of emptiness, stillness and silence-- and they become doubly pissy and snarly because they can't stand it. Because they hate it and can't do anything about it, because the cure is unthinkable. They are so filled with the wrong kind of emptiness they can't bear the right kind of emptiness long enough to be still and quiet-- and listen and look until they hear and see what it would take for their life to work. What it would take is the extreme polar opposite of what they want it to be. And that what keeps things pissy and snarly. People don't have what it takes to grow up and do what needs to be done. That's all it takes, and they can't do it because they want what they want even though they don't know what that is. They know it isn't what it will take, and they are not going to do it. That leaves pissy and snarly forever. I recommend giving them wide berth where that is possible, and waiting for them to leave when it is not. Everybody has to grow up against their will. Too bad we can't force that on those who won't do it. Growing up cannot be forced on anyone. That's why things are what they are. We are all waiting on Pissy and Snarly to grow up. We are waiting things out in the wasteland of their discontent. In the meantime, we do what needs to be done when it needs to be done, where it needs to be done, the way it needs to be done, because it needs to be done. Helps to pass the time while we wait.