There is what we do to pay the bills, and there is what we pay the bills to do. Which is the most important? Which is the easiest? Everybody thinks money is the most important thing. Few people have a clear understanding of what money is for. Of what bills are the right bills, and what bills are the wrong bills. Of what we need money in order to do. We have to work this out for ourselves. What are we paying the bills to do? What MUST we do with our life? What are we here to serve and to do? What MUST we do? "I have no say in the matter, Gibbs. It's the pirate's life for me. Savvy?" (Captain Jack Sparrow) What matter is it that we have no say in? What is the equivalent of the pirate's life for us? Then comes the question of how much money we will need to do that, and what can we do to make that much money. And we cannot think our way to the answers! We feel our way there. We live our way there. We have to start paying attention. What has always been "it" for you? Start with that and see what emerges, arises, appears, occurs to you as you circumambulate what has always been "it" for you, waiting to see what comes to mind. Carry this with you through each day, wondering, imagining, woolgathering, looking, listening, musing on what for you is what a pirate's life was for Captain Jack Sparrow. That is the treasure you seek. Everything falls into place around that. Don't stop questing until the deed is done!
Laughter and tears, tears and laughter, say it all. As much as can be said. As much as needs be said. But. They have to be the right kind of laughter, and the right kind of tears. That's the stipulation that transforms the game. It isn't just about laughing and crying. It is about laughing and crying from the right vantage point, with the right perspective. With the perspective that sees rightly and knows truly, so that you have no alternative but to burst forth in laughter or tears or both. Laughter and tears go where words cannot follow. "The Tao that can be told is not the eternal Tao." "The path that can be discerned is not a reliable path." We have to live our way there, with our eyes open. Slip sliding all the way. Which is, itself, a fit occasion for laughter and tears. As all occasions are, Because all occasions, and every single thing, are truth waiting to be seen and received with laughter and with tears.