October 05, 2020

02

Wildflower Grassland 01 10/04/2020 — Anne Springs Close Greenway, Lake Haigler Access, Fort Mill, South Carolina
What would it take for you to be at peace with your life
just as it is?

Which includes doing what it takes
to make your life more like it needs to be
than it is.

What does your life need to be
that it isn't?

Where is your life deficient?
Where is your life excessive?
Where is your life being neglected/ignored?
Where is your life being restricted/confined?
Where is your life being overrun/violated/disrupted?

In what ways do you need help with your life?

To what degree are you aware
of your relationship with your life?

In what ways does your life reflect/exhibit/express/incarnate/reveal
who you are?

In what ways does your life inhibit/conceal/deny/oppose/repress who you are?

How would you describe your relationship with your life?

In what ways do you tend and serve your life?
In what ways do you expect your life to tend and serve you?

In what ways do you cooperate/collaborate with your life?
In what ways do you contend/clash with your life?

What do you need from your life?
What does your life need from you?

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01

The Horse Barn 10/04/2020 01 Panorama — Anne Springs Close Greenway, Fort Mill, South Carolina
If you wait until you are drowning
to learn how to swim,
you make it harder on yourself
than it needs to be.

See how many places you can apply
this pithy little insight
throughout your life.

It will change your life.

October 04, 2020

02

Muscadine and Sourwood 10/03/2020 — 22-Acre Woods, Indian Land, South Carolina, an iPhone Photo
Living from our own center
with nothing at stake in the outcome
is like singing in the shower,
or dancing in the rain.

It is a spontaneous,
impromptu,
improvisational
response to our situation as it arises
and opens before us,
calling us to dance with life
in becoming one with the moment
and the opportunity it offers us
to express ourselves
by offering what is ours to give
in response to the need of the moment
and the time that is at hand.

And this, 
without contrivance
or agenda,
or any thought of what is in it for us,
or how we might seize the moment
for our benefit,
advantage,
gain
or profit,
and "come out ahead"
in any sense of the term.

We're dancing, man!
"And there is only the dance!"
(T.S. Eliot)

The key to living well
is to live as though we are dancing.
When the music begins,
our cares drop away.
We don't know who the President is,
or what our worries are,
or how we are going to manage
with "the wolf at our door."
We dance.
And dancing brings forth 
the joy of life.
The joy of being here, now,
alive in this moment
and able to dance.

The music is there in every moment,
waiting for ears that hear,
and toes that tap,
and hearts that can dance with life!

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01

Two Rocks 02 09/24/2004 –Jordan Pond, Acadia National Park, Bar Harbor, Maine
Abraham's retort to God,
"Shall not the judge of the earth do right?"
is one Job should have used.
Instead, Job cowers before the "Might Makes Right" defense
God uses to justify leaving Job unprotected against the wiles of Satan.

And Baruch would have done well to use it
against God's, "I'll give you your life as a prize of war,"
excuse for refusing to be more of a 
"very present help in time of trouble."

The question is one we shun and ostracize
in the forlorn hope that God will make it up to us
if we are patient and faithful
in trusting ourselves to the ultimate triumph of "God's Plan"
at work through inconceivable evil
to save the day and all the long-suffering True Believers
at the End of Time.  

Habakkuk and Jesus stand out in having
the courage of their own convictions,
in declaring their loyalty and allegiance 
to doing what is right in each situation as it arises,
no matter what--
with the outcome playing no part
in their ongoing and eternal devotion
to doing what needs to be done
moment-by-moment,
day-by-day,
their whole life long.

In so doing, 
they point the way for us all.

Why something happens
or fails to happen
is irrelevant to the situation at hand.
Doing what is called for here and now
is our only concern.

"Here we are--now what?"
is our response to the times
all the time.
How we answer that question,
moment-by-moment,
day-by-day,
sets the tone
and establishes the rhythm
of our life,
and shapes the future
better than any assortment of beliefs
and statements of faith
ever could.

Believe whatever you want,
but do what needs to be done!
Here and now and always and forever!

October 03, 2020

03

Two Barns 08/10/2019 Panorama — Kershaw County, South Carolina
Our life forms itself around us,
reflecting our choices and decisions
exhibiting our preferences and inclinations,
expressing our degree of creativity and courage...

We are content seeking shape and form.
Our life becomes us so.

And we blame our circumstances.

"If we had had more of this
and less of that!"

If this! If that!
Well.
Easy to say.
Maybe. Maybe Not.

What we know is that
we are the one constant
through all of the times and places,
chances and opportunities,
contexts and circumstances
of our life,
and here we are now.

We are the content,
and this is the shape and form.

If we would prefer a different shape,
a better form,
we only have the content to work with.

How different can we be in the time left for living?

If you are serious about finding out,
sit before a mirror
and see who looks back at you.
Consider the content of you,
and what is revealed/concealed 
by your appearance,
body language--
including posture
and facial expression--
tone of voice
physical shape
and overall demeanor.

Take up the practice
of changing your content
and seeing what shifts
your shape and form
take in response 
to the shifts made in content.

It will be a game 
you play with yourself
for the rest of your life.

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02

Goldenrod 01 10/01/2020–22-Acre Woods, Indian Land, South Carolina
We could make a list--
and probably should--
of the people who know the truth
when they see it,
as a source of encouragement
and motivation
in our own work
to see what we look at
and know what's what.

George Carlin
Claudia Conway
Dolly Parton
Linda Ronstadt
Eddie Murray
Richard Pryor
Jon Stewart
Stephen Colbert
Al Franken
...

Who stands out for you?
Let them be your soulmates,
your guides,
your gurus,
your spiritual family,
the people you turn to 
in time of trouble.

Nobody can do it for long alone.
Not even the people on your list!
Live to be on somebody's list--
and keep going!

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01

Water Rock Knob 10/29/2014 — Blue Ridge Parkway, Maggie Valley, North Carolina
The old adage gets to the heart of the matter:
"It's all grist for the mill."
What are we milling is the question.
What are we working to get,
acquire,
amass,
attain,
achieve,
have,
do,
be?

What is it going to take 
for us to be 
at absolute peace
with the life we are living?

What are we milling?
Producing?
Manufacturing?
Making?
Constructing?
Creating?
Processing?
Assembling?
Putting together?

What is guiding our boat
on its path through the sea?

How we discern a favorable wind
from and ill wind?

A good place to be
from where we have no business being?

What is our business?
What are we about?
What are we milling?

Where are we going?
How will we know when we arrive?
Who are we trying to please?
How do we know what is pleasing?
Who says so?
How did they become the voice of authority
ruling over our life?
What makes us think they know what is pleasing?
Our life is based on what?

What is guiding our boat
on its path through the sea?

October 02, 2020

01

Valley View 04/26/2006 — Yosemite National Park, Mariposa County, California
We hide ourselves
and hide from ourselves.

We speak in code about ourselves
and to ourselves.

Dismissing.
Disregarding.
Discounting.
Denying.
Ignoring.
What is important
in favor of what is trivial
and essentially non-essential.

We only have to look a our life
to know it is so.

Our life conceals and reveals us.
Our choices disclose and obscure us.

We don't like ourselves
and it shows.

Nothing is more apparent
than our refusal to be who we are.

We have what remains 
of the time left for living
to turn the light around,
and redeem what needs redeeming
by serving the destiny
we abandoned shortly after birth.

We start by sitting down,
being quiet,
and meeting what meets us
in the silence
with nowhere to hide--
holding everything that comes up
in our awareness,
with compassion,
without judgment or opinion,
just seeing,
just knowing,
just looking,
just listening,
just being 
with what is being with us,
waiting for the way 
to open before us,
trusting ourselves
to know when it does.

October 01, 2020

03

The Log in String Lake 09/23/2006
The Way doesn't get any clearer than this:

Do your thing
with nothing at stake in the outcome.

In each situation as it arises.

That is all there is to it.
Or ever has been.

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02

Ace Basin Collage 01/29/2015 — Ernest F. Hollings ACE Basin National Wildlife Refuge, Hollywood, South Carolina
We create the future
by the way we respond to our present.

Each present moment--
every here-and-now--
is a fulcrum,
a pivot point,
shifting how things are
into how things will be.

If things are to be different.
We have to think differently.
We have to live differently.
We have to see differently.
We have to interpret/evaluate/understand differently.

We have to be different.
We have to become different.
Here/Now.

We tend to think we are perfect as we are,
and it is our surroundings,
our circumstances,
that have to change.

If we want things to change
in relation to us,
we have to change 
in relation to things.

It starts with us.

We are holding things in place
by the way we respond to things.
Until that changes,
nothing changes
(No matter how much it appears to change).

If things change
without our attitude changing,
nothing is different,
regardless of how much it changes.

The changes that make a difference
take place behind our eyes,
between our ears.

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01

Mushrooms 01 09/30/2020 — 22-Acre Woods, Indian Land, South Carolina
Happiness is not a function of circumstance or occasion.
Happiness is a function of perspective, 
of evaluation.
Happiness is a way of seeing/being.

Why not be happy?
With things just as they are?
Why not say YES! to life just as it is?
Why not, as Joseph Campbell suggested,
"participate joyfully in the sorrows of the world"?

Campbell also said,
"The warrior's approach is to say 'yes' to life: 'yea' to it all."

And,
"We are not there until we can say 'yea' to it all."

And,
"As you proceed through life, following you own path, 
birds will shit on you. Don't bother to brush it off."
(Pay it no mind. 
Live to do what you are doing!)

And,
"Getting a comedic view of your situation
gives you spiritual distance.
Having a sense of humor saves you."

And,
"The very cave you are afraid to enter
turns out to be the source
of what you are looking for.
The damned thing in the cave 
that was so dreaded
has become the center."

And,
The path requires "the love of your fate.
Whatever your fate is,
whatever the hell happens,
you say, 'This is just what I need!'
It may look like a wreck,
but go at it as though it were an opportunity,
a challenge.
If you bring love to that moment--
not discouragement--
you will find the strength is there."

And,
"Nothing can happen to you that is not positive."

And
"When we are on our own path,
what we need comes along just when we need it."

And,
"Have a theory that if you on your own path,
things are going to come to you.
Since it is your own path,
and no one has ever been on it before,
there is no precedent,
so everything that happens
is a surprise and is timely...
Nothing is routine,
nothing is taken for granted.
Everything is standing out on its own,
because everything is a possibility,
everything is a clue,
everything is talking to you."

Happiness is a function of perspective,
perception and evaluation.

Happiness is a function 
of how we see what we look at,
of what we tell ourselves
about what we see.

We are either on the adventure 
of being who we are,
where we are,
when we are,
how we are,
or not.

"The future is up to us!"
(Enola Holmes)

"Anything can happen,
if you let it!"
(Mary Poppins)

"Whose side are you on?"
(Jim Dollar)

September 30, 2020

02

The Cabin 10/05/2006 — Jesse Brown’s place, Blue Ridge Parkway, near West Jefferson, North Carolina
Safety, security, stability are 
the three foundational necessities
for life as we would like to live it.

They are as much an internal orientation
as they are an external reality.

Someone who has been physically/sexually/emotionally abused,
and place them in a safe/secure/stable environment,
and it will take them forever to feel safe/secure/stable.

Take someone who has been betrayed,
and how long will it be
before they can trust themselves to anyone?

This is where establishing,
deepening
and maintaining
a vitally alive relationship with our inner self 
becomes essential.

What keeps us going
if not knowing who/what we can count on?
Who/what is the most reliable source
of helpful presence in our life
than the two million year old person within
who comes packed in the DNA
of each of us
to comfort and console,
guide and direct,
us on our way through 
the contexts and circumstances 
of our daily walk?

Why don't we devote ourselves
to the care and tending of our relationship
with the Other within?

What do you think Marianne Moore meant
when she said,
"The cure for loneliness is solitude"?
Who do we find waiting for us
in our solitude but The One Who Is With Us Always?

Our "Two Million Year Old Self" (Anthony Stevens,
Carl Jung) is an aspect of our Unconscious Mind
(So-called because we are not conscious of it),
and is "The One Who Knows" within
who we experience as "A Very Present Help In Time Of Trouble,"
and is the origin of our "holy nudges,"
and "sudden inspirations,"
and "providential realizations,"
and "propitious interventions" 
in the form of things that occur to us "out of the blue,"
and change our course to "save the day"
and more than that.

Where would any of us be
without our "invisible means of support"
(Bill Moyers)?

Each of us is born with all we need
to find what we need
to make our way through our life.
Why do we ignore that,
or despise it,
in favor of "blind guides"
and bad bets?

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01

First of Fall 04 09/29/2020 — 22-Acre Woods, Indian Land, South Carolina
Britain felt worse during the endless days of World War II.
And Rome during the forever-long collapse of the Caesars.
The people who have felt worse--
and faced worse--
through the bitter winds of time
from the beginning until now
would not fit within the confines of this country
or all countries on this planet.

So stop your whining. 
Nothing is free.

We walked into the voting booths in 2016--
or didn't vote at all--
thinking it didn't matter what we did.
Has anybody ever been more wrong over the full sweep of time?

Our assumptions,
expectations
and the things we took for granted
have us here, now.
We did not know what we were doing.
We did not care what we did.
And we are looking for someone to fix it for us.
To make it go away.

"We did it to our ownselves."
And it will be a long time gone.

So put your walking shoes on,
and step into doing what needs to be done,
one day at a time
for as long as it takes
to be at a better place,
individually and collectively.

Start by voting for Joe Biden.
And by being right about what's important.
And being willing to go to hell for what is,
because we will certainly go to hell for what isn't.

And knowing when your assumptions are invalid
and your expectations are groundless,
and when you are failing to tend your responsibilities
to democracy and all the values worth living for--
and being who we all need each other to be
for as long as life shall last.

September 29, 2020

04

Teton Barn — Mormon Row, Grand Teton National Park, Jackson, Wyoming
Consistency, reliability, dependability...
Can we maintain our connection with the center?
Can we remain on the path?
Can we retain our focus
amid the Clashing Rocks
on the Heaving Waves of the Wine Dark Sea?

It is one thing to grasp the truth 
of what is needed
in the silence of circumstances
that are routine and predictable,
but.

Enter the unfathomable.
Put the Gauls or the Visigoths at the gates!
Remove the norms and standards.
Introduce uncertainty.
Destroy the systems and institutions
that hold life together.
Or, just take to bed with a migraine for two days.
See how you do.

An old Zen adage applies:
"The ability of the archer to hit the bullseye,
varies in inverse proportion
to the size of the prize for doing so."

"AUM" is the first thing to go
when the cat has diarrhea 
and the electricity goes off
at 2 AM.

Where is the center then?
What happens to our focus then?
Who has time for the balm of realization then?

Then the time has come for action!
What directs our movement in the field of action?
What leads us there, then?
What becomes of us there, then?
Can we disappear there, then?
And become one with the action?

The dancer becomes the dance!
The singer becomes the song!
The musician becomes the music!
The Force is always with us, but.
Can we be one with the force?
Can we become the Force?
Can we become the Tao?
Dancing with Yin and Yang in the Here and Now?
Gracing the situation with exactly what is needed?
Spontaneously?
Improvisationally?
Without stopping to think,
"What would Jesus do?"?
Can we become Grace in Action?

That's how illumined we are!
How enlightened we are!
How awakened we are!
Can we disappear 
and be what is needed
in the time and place of our living
regardless of the circumstances?

That is the test of our connection
with the center and ground,
The Source and the flow
of our existence.

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03

Swift River 09/26/2007 Watercolor Rendering — Kancamagus Highway, New Hampshire
We are never more than a slight shift in perspective
away from having it made.
We are never more than that far away from Nirvana,
from illumination,
from awakening,
from enlightenment,
from Christ-consciousness
and Buddha-mind.

It all comes down to being right
about the way we see things.
To being right about what is important.
Seeing things with right seeing
makes all the difference.

How we see is a function 
of how we look.
Of asking the questions that beg to be asked.
Of hearing the things that cry out to be heard.
Of saying the things that are dying to be said.
Of knowing what we know,
and what can be known,
and what cannot be known.

Instead of imposing our view of reality upon reality--
instead of imposing our ideas about how things are
upon how things are--
we wait in the silence to see,
to hear,
to know,
to understand.

When we reflect on what is before us--
upon what is happening
and what that means for us
and for the situation as it arises--
to the point of new realizations,
we are at the fulcrum,
being levered by forces quite beyond us
to seeing with new eyes,
which makes all things new.

And that is IT!

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02

Sunset at Water Rock Knob 08/05/2007 — Blue Ridge Parkway, Maggie Valley, North Carolina
There is nothing like coming to terms
with how things are--
and also are
(Which is how things actually are)--
for enabling us to let things be
without emotional reactivity
that interferes with how things actually are,
and creates complexity,
upheaval,
disruption
and chaos
on all levels simultaneously,
wreaking havoc,
destruction,
devastation
and misery everlasting.

Here's the deal:
We live on the boundary,
the border line,
the interface,
the pivot point,
the fulcrum
between how things are
and how things ought to be
in each moment
in each situation as it arises
day-by-day
all our life long.

And how we respond to what is happening
in that moment
makes all the difference.

The key to being able
to do right by the moment
that is at hand
in every moment that comes along
is caring enough about the right things
in the right way
to do what needs to be done
without interfering with what is happening
or getting in the way of what needs to happen.

The right kind of caring
is the difference between being helpful
and being intrusive,
between being engaged for the good of the whole
without being co-dependent
and overly invested in the outcome.

We have to live in each moment
as those who care enough about what is happening
to offer the best we have to give
in the service of the good of the whole
without being meddlesome,
over-wrought,
strung-out,
and personally in need of
things happening in a particular way,
to the extent that we try to will what cannot be willed
and force things to happen that cannot be forced.

We have to take things seriously enough
to do what is needed/necessary,
in the right spirit,
with the right frame of mind,
without taking things seriously at all.

This is called "maintaining working distance"
between ourselves and the situation.
Close enough to care
without having anything at stake.

Caring enough to give what we have to offer
with nothing to gain 
and nothing to lose.

To live out of that place
is to be always "at the still point
of the turning world"
(T.S. Eliot).

The trick with that
is understanding there is no static way of being
in the daily interplay of life.

The "still point" is not stationary!
The still point that enables us to ride a bicycle
is within a range of controlled wobbles!
The same thing applies to the still point
of living in balance and harmony with our life--
and all of life!

Caring enough without caring too much!
Offering what is ours to give
to each moment of our living
without contriving to arrange
a particular result/end/outcome!
Letting things come and go
according to the rhythm 
of their own timing,
and honoring, thereby,
the tides of life and living and being alive!

This is the art of being human.

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01

First of Fall 09/28/2020 02 — 22-Acre Woods, Indian Land, South Carolina, an iPhone Photo
So much goes on behind the scenes,
unseen,
unknown,
it's a travesty
and a betrayal of trust,
and we all should be ashamed,
and aware--
transparent to ourselves,
if not to everyone else,
and they to us.

At least, we could be sincere
about our lack of sincerity.

But who can risk absolute sincerity?
Who can be that vulnerable,
that known?

We hide things from ourselves!
How sincere is that?
We cannot bear the truth
of our own truth!
And other people know things about us
we do not know ourselves!

It is staggering--
the duplicity,
the deception--
and essential!
Necessary!
Unavoidable!

Because we need a double life
to have a life at all!

This is the other side of Yin/Yang--
the two sides have a second side apiece!
Hidden from themselves!

Our Shadow has a shadow!
This is getting fancy!
And we have no choice
but to bear our own complexity!

Our complexity is a compromise
enabling us to bear the strain
of the tension of competing needs--
financial, emotional, physical, spiritual, practical, creative...
how many aspects of us are there
that have to be taken into account
in order to balance the harmony of the whole?

However we look at it,
there is more to us than meets the eye!
Any eye!
And what you see--
what any of us see--
is the result of sanity management
undertaken to bear the pain
of getting through the day.

We have to kid ourselves
in order to play the game
of not kidding ourselves,
because otherwise it would be intolerable,
and too much of a stretch to keep it going.

It is what we don't know
that upholds what we do know,
and makes it possible
to go on!

September 28, 2020

04

First of Fall 01 09-28-2020 — 22 Acre Woods, Indian Land, South Carolina, an iPhone Photo
I would like to sit down one-on-one with everybody,
and hear what they had to say.
I think that is all anybody needs.
Someone to hear what they have to say.

Everybody wants to tell people what they need to hear.
Nobody wants to hear what people have to say.
I would like to change that.
I've been doing it all my life.

I've also been saying what I have to say.
I don't hold anything back.
I'm doing it here, now.
I do as good a job listening
and speaking
as anyone I know.

It's what I do best.
Along with seeing.
Not that I don't miss anything.
Yesterday, I moved the butter out of the way
looking for the butter.
And last week, I left a crutch at the nursery
(I was one crutching it--
I use crutches to get about because of osteoarthritis 
in both knees,
but my left knee is worse than my right one, 
so I can manage for short distances
with a forearm crutch on my right arm,
and got distracted with buying the plants
my wife and I purchased,
and left my crutch behind).
I didn't miss it for a couple of days
(Don't use it around the house),
and had no idea where it was.
So, today, it occurred to me to ask
at the nursery if it were there.
And happy the reunion was.
All of which is to say I miss things all the time.
Without thinking anything of it.
I keep looking and seeing,
and not seeing.
Listening and hearing,
and not hearing.
It's what I do best,
and enjoy most.
And I look forward to continuing
to do it for long years
into the far distant future.

Holding the butter looking for the butter
was great.
I am very Zen-like some days.

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03

Reelfoot Lake 11/04/2015 50 — Reelfoot Lake State Park, Tiptonville, Tennessee
All religious wars are fought
between/among disciples
of a particular idea of religion.

They are fighting over their understanding
of theology, doctrine, dogma, creeds and catechisms.
Over words about their religion.

They disagree about what words are true
and what words are false.
They disagree about what they believe to be so--
to be factual, actual, real and, thus, true!--
because someone has said so.

All of this changes like that (snaps fingers),
when we shift from talking about belief
and start talking about experience.

Separate yourself from everything
you have ever heard about God
from all other sources including the Bible,
and focus exclusively 
on what you have personally experienced of God
in your own life.
What do you know to be so 
because you know it is so,
and not because you believe it to be so,
or have heard it to be so?

When we talk of our experience of God,
we do not speak of the God of theology and doctrine,
but of the Numen beyond all words and reason,
beyond all logic and intellect.
The experience of the Numen
sits us down and shuts us up.
Wonder and awe,
amazement and fascination,
do not lend themselves to words.

Lao Tzu said all that can be said:
"The Tao that can be said
is not the eternal Tao!"

There are neither wars
nor disagreement
among those who experience the Numen
in art, music and nature,
with childbirth and falling in love,
or being smitten by the encounter
with another human being,
all being as natural as nature can be.

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02

Jasper Wetlands 09/29/2009 03 Watercolor Rendering — Jasper National Park, Alberta
Friedrich Nietzsche said the goal of the maturation process
is to become "a wheel rolling out of its own center."

I envision a gyroscope turning out of its own center
as it moves in a direction suited to its purposes,
stabilizing itself in tune with its own balance and harmony,
and serving its own Original Nature
with sincerity and compassion
in all that it does.

We are our own authority.
We govern our own actions.
We evaluate our own values.
We live to ask the questions that beg to be asked
in each situation as it arises.
To say what cries out to be said.
And to do what needs to be done
here and now--
without contriving
or deferring,
seeking to please
or fearing repercussions,
but living to express
our own heart and soul,
and being true to ourselves
in all times and places.

We stand on our own feet,
live out of our own center,
with loyalty and devotion
to our own nature,
and let the outcome be the outcome.

To do this,
we have to devote time and attention
to cultivating our relationship
with ourselves
so that we know who we are
out of our on-going experience
with what is deepest, truest and best about us
all our life long.

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01

Sanctuary 10/24/2006 — Big Creek, Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Waterville, North Carolina, Watercolor Rendering
What keeps you going?
You live in the service of what?
What is your shtick?
Your thing?
Your art?
Your genius?
Your gift?
What are you here to do?
To bring forth?
Exhibit?
Express?
Love with all your heart?
Who are you here to be?
No matter what?

Do not stray from that!
Do not wander away from the center!
The core!
The essence!
The qualities that constitute
your Original Nature!

Be you wherever you are!
Regardless of your circumstances!
Bring your perspective forth!
Dance your dance!
Love your life!
Love being alive!
Let your love for life show!

Why hold anything back?
Let your little light shine!
Let your little toes dance!
Let your little heart love what it loves!
While it can!

September 27, 2020

02

A View of the River Watercolor Rendering — Yellowstone Canyon/River, Yellowstone National Park, Wyoming
Jon Kabat-Zinn
(And if you haven't watched 
his YouTube Videos 
on Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction--
the shortest ones first--
what exactly are you waiting for?)
said that mindfulness and meditation
are like riding a bicycle. 

When you are learning to ride a bicycle,
you think about riding the bicycle.
When you learn to ride a bicycle,
you quit thinking about it.

The same thing applies to playing third base,
hitting a curve ball 
(or throwing one),
cooking pizza or an apple pie,
and hitting high C.
We think about it until we get it,
and then we stop thinking about it.

Always thinking about it,
always thinking about how we aren't doing it,
and when are we going to start doing it,
and who is doing it better than we are,
and why we aren't good at anything...
gets in the way of doing it.

Practice until we get it,
then stop thinking about it,
and do it.

It's like learning to walk.

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01

Bow Lake Num-ti-jah Lodge 09/21/2006 Watercolor Rendering — Banff National Park, Alberta
Are you at peace with your circumstances?
Are you at-one with yourself?

Balance and harmony, Kid!
Balance and harmony!

We can gauge how well its working
by our degree of balance and harmony,
spirit, vitality and life.

When the Clashing Rocks
and Heaving Seas
disturb our inner rhythm and flow,
our outer life-in-the-world
will be at hell's gate.

We think we have to get outer
all calm and peaceful
in order to bring our inner world
into tranquil accord.

That is to have things backwards
in a cart-before-the-horse kind of way.
First inner, then outer.

It's the old story of the Taoist Master and the Drought.
The people of the drought-plagued district
asked her to come and bring the rain.
She arrived and shut herself into a hut in the village
and three days later it rained.
Asked how she did it,
she replied, 
"When I arrived, 
I found things to be out of accord 
with the Tao
and in complete disarray.
So, I closed myself off from the village,
and sought to make my peace with the situation,
and to restore my own harmony with the Tao.
And then, the rains came."

September 26, 2020

01

Sunset at Silver Lake Watercolor Rendering 10/28/2006 — Ocracoke Island, Cape Hatteras National Seashore, North Carolina
We have to believe in the things
that keep us going.
That is the true test of our faith.
Can it--does it--will it--keep us going?

We go in the service of what we believe in.
People who have lost their faith
go mostly to bars and opioids.

The surest way to not lose our faith
is for it to be grounded--
not in theology or doctrine
or somebody else's beliefs--
but in our own experience
with numinous
(So-called because it is unspeakable,
inexplicable,
un-say-able,
beyond words)
reality
that has grabbed us,
whammed us,
overwhelmed us,
claimed us
and made us its own.

We can't think up something to believe in.
We have to be stunned into stopping mid-stride
by it.

If we don't have an experience of the Numen
it's because we have insulated ourselves
against it
by living loud, busy, regimented lives.

We have to stop. Look. Listen. Pay attention.
What's the first thing we notice?
Something to make us want to escape
back into busyness most likely.

We run from the Numen
because it lives in a dimension
accessible only by going where we do not want to go.
Past things we do not want to face.
We had rather go to bars and opioids.

It takes the Numen to keep us going.
If we prefer to shut down and quit
that's our business.
But, we need to know we have a choice.

We can sit in the silence,
listening, looking
for what is there with us
beyond the terrors of the darkness.

Trusting in what-we-do-not-know
to call our name
and transform our life.

September 25, 2020

02

Pink Ladies — Blue Ridge Parkway, Virginia
Maintaining our focus,
remaining centered,
balanced,
in harmonious accord with the Tao
is all there is to it.

Only fear, desire and duty
stand in our way.

And the dust of the world.

And the 10,000 things.

It is amazing that we can even
consider focus,
centering,
balance
and harmony.

And it is not surprising at all
that we have such difficulty
finding our focus,
our center,
our balance
and harmony.

We only have two tools to work with:
Our breath
and the silence.

Focusing on our breathing
and seeking the silence
provide us with an oasis
in the wasteland.

Making regular returns
to our breath
and the silence
provide us with a sacred place
amid the heaving waves 
and the clashing rocks--
all we need for regaining our focus,
finding the center,
being balanced
and in harmonious accord
with the Tao
and at peace with our life.

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01

Sandy Stream Pond Reflections 09/24/2006 — Baxter State Park, Millinocket, Maine
Sealing ourselves off from one thing,
opens us up to another.

We have to come to terms
with our vulnerability,
and settle for being
as safe and as secure as we can be
under the circumstances,
with all things considered.

Our life is a negotiated compromise
with "the facts of life,"
taking everything into account,
and being okay with our outcomes,
whatever they may be--
understanding "outcome"
as being just another event
on the unending road of turns 
and how we respond to them
our entire life long.

Nothing lasts forever under the right perspective.

We give up this to get that,
and pay a price for being alive.
How creative and flexible we can be,
how accepting and open,
how pliable and resilient,
how generous and kind,
how patient and yielding,
how perceptive and aware,
how long-suffering and considerate,
how enduring and responsive...
will strongly influence--
if not determine--
how lucky, blessed, and graced we are
over the full course of our life.

Being lucky, blessed and graced
are a function of being trusting and confident
in ourselves 
and our ability to respond appropriately
to whatever is happening in each situation
as it arises moment-to-moment,
day-by-day
without having to have things be otherwise.

If everything hangs on having everything just so,
we will have a hell-of-a-time receiving things
"thus come,"
and seeing what may yet become of us-in-relationship-wth
all things just as they are.

Which is the very foundation of--
 and the door open to--
the wonder and glory
of the adventure of being alive.

No adventure is what we expect it will be.
Insisting and demanding that our adventure
be what we want it to be
rules out any possibility of adventure from the start.

We belong to the road.
The road rules.
Our place is to laugh and dance along the way.
How we respond to the gifts of the road
makes all the difference.