What are the lies you have been told? Make a list over time. Keep it going to include all the lies, great and small, that have impacted your life. Burn the list. Bury the ashes. Turn the light around. Turning the light around transforms the lies by turning the light from the negative burden of the lies, to the truth of who you are that the lies evoked/called forth to meet the reality of the lies. The lies have been devastating, particularly when compared to the life that might have been yours without the lies, and, you have risen from the ashes of that devastation to be here/now anyway, nevertheless, even so. We all could have been better with more help, with more truth. Yet, here we are, "just so." Thanks, in part, to our original nature and the virtues that are still with us from birth. We can count on that nature and those virtues to be with us the rest of the way. We can count on ourselves standing up and meeting the day, each day, because here we are. Our response to the lies has been the life we are living. And our continued response to the lies will be the life we will live yet. We will continue to rise from the ashes in being who we are, anyway, nevertheless, even so! We all have a tale to tell that has yet to be told, and the way we live from this point will tell that tale. Press on! Press on!
Knowing what to do in a situation is not a matter of thinking about it, but one of simply realizing what is so, and responding automatically, spontaneously, with the right word/act, done at the right time, in the right way, and following that with the right response to the situation that flows naturally from the present one. It is like dancing with the music without thinking about what you are doing. Live at one with the music of your life. That is all that is asked of us. Thinking comes in with things like filing our income taxes. Mostly, it is just knowing/doing here/now.
What's your specialty? Start there. What flows from that? Connects with that? Is a natural extension of that? Evolves smoothly from that? Think of your specialty as a doorway to you and the things you do best, enjoy the most, and see where it takes you, with one thing leading to another, following the alchemical formula, "One book opens another," and leading you spontaneously, joyfully, into worlds of wonder, amazement, radiance and beauty-- all YOU.