What is worth doing for itself alone? Start there. Give yourself to the actions that are their own fulfillment and reason for being. Horseback riding, perhaps. Walking on a foggy morning through the woods. Reading stories to the grandchildren. Surely, your life is filled with things that you do for the joy of it! Do those things with clarity, willfulness and attentive presence! These are the things you live to do! These are the sources of meaning in your life! Do them with reckless abandon! LIVE to do them! Work them into each day! Do not be bashful or apologetic! These things are who you are! Look to expand their number, to increase their presence in quantity and frequency in your life! You are here to do what you love to do for no reason beyond loving to do it! Do not be slack in doing what you love! Your life will love you for it!
There is a right way to do anything, and a wrong way to do it. Mozart wrote his symphonies with the right way to do it in mind. This is not to say that someone wouldn't/couldn't come along with an interpretation that would blow even Mozart away. Even though 10,000 people might present interpretations that would leave him lamenting that he wrote it at all. There are ways of responding to the moment of our living that are so right everyone witnessing it would respond with a standing ovation. And ways of responding that are so wrong that everyone hearing about it would writhe in shame and dismay. We stand between-- and offer some variant of-- right and wrong in each moment of every situation that arises, all our life long. We could be more consciously aware of that than we are. We could listen intently to what the moment is calling for, realize with clarity what our role in the moment requires of us, and offer it without seeking to exploit our opportunity for our good/gain/profit/advancement, but seeking simply to offer what is needed, when it is needed, the way it is needed to be done and let that be that. Without merit or applause, and nothing arising from it beyond the next moment, in which we respond with awareness and behavior appropriate to the occasion. Moment-by-moment, situation-by-situation, day-by-day all our life long. This simple way of living is well within our reach, and yet it exceeds our grasp, day in and day out, all our life long. What is that about?
It is always right before us. The Gospel of Thomas says Jesus said, "The kingdom of God is spread out over the entire earth, and no one sees what they are looking at." The stone the builders reject. The pearl of great price lost among the costume jewelry at the flea market. The treasure buried in the field people walk past every day. The man sitting on his ox looking for his ox. The woman with her glasses on her head, looking for her glasses. What can you do with people like that? Jesus is born anew in every generation. No one sees him. Most of the time he doesn't see himself. John the Baptist sent his people to ask Jesus, "Are you the one? Or shall we look for another?" If you have to ask, maybe you ought to change your expectations. In order to see what is right before you. And then, there is the Buddhist take on things: "If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him!" Because you are what you seek! Get it? So be who you are! Without trying! What could be simpler? Or more difficult?
Our life has a life of its own. Our place is to find it, align ourselves with it, and live out our days loving our life and enjoying it forever. The clues to finding our life and living it are bread crumbs of meaning-- and by "meaning" I mean the things we enjoy and do for themselves alone, and not because they will lead to something else. In other words, our life consists of doing what is meaningful and letting nature take its course. What is meaningful about your present life? Do more of that! Next question? Seriously. What are your questions? Don't tell me--tell yourself! Make a list of your questions. Everything flows from there. Answers mean nothing. Questions mean everything. Let your questions guide you to a life worth living! Let your questions lead you to a life worth having! We know more when we know what our questions are than we would ever know knowing what the answers are. Ask your questions, and the questions they beg to be asked! That is the way to all things wise and wonderful! You are wasting your time talking to people who have the answers. Talk to people who have the question-- especially the right questions! They know what's what, and what's not. What are your questions?