What is the organizing idea of our life? The original Oomph driving our original nature? We are here to do what? What drives us? What shapes our life? What does our particular constellation of interests/abilities/knacks/proclivities/ virtues/characteristics equip us to do? What calls us forth? Leads us on? What fascinates us? Attracts us? Spellbinds us? What is the theme running through all that we are enthusiastic about? What brings us joy? What is the spark that lightens up our day? And leads us along the way? Sit with these questions. See where they lead.
Native Americans have a saying: "It's a good day to die!" That means, it is a good day to die in the service of what needs to be done-- in the service of what needs us to do it! There is only us and what is ours to do-- beyond what we want to do, beyond what we feel like doing, beyond what we are in the mood for, beyond what we are interested in, beyond what is on our agenda beyond our idea of how our life is to be spent... Who are we? What are we about? What are we to be about? We only have to be who we are, and be about what we are to be about. That is all that is asked of us ever. But, we have our mind on other things. We have the time left for living to find our life and live it. And we are burning daylight. What???
There are those who cannot bear the world as it is, as it is becoming, as it needs to be. Jesus said about them, "Leave the dead to bury the dead, and you go find your life and live it!" Native Americans said about them, to their young leaving home to find their way in the world, "As you go to seek your gifts and the things that need what you have to offer, the birds of the air will shit on you-- do not pause even to wipe it off." We are born with a mission, with a purpose beyond all of our purposes, with a calling to go and be who we are, and let the outcome be the outcome. We leave the womb and enter the world of 10 billion distractions, 10 trillion diversions, and 1 better idea of what would make us truly happy forever after another for as long as we are alive. And our task is to find our life and live it. How are you doing with that? Here is the test for knowing: How often can you sit still and be quiet for how long? The silence reveals who we are and who we are not and what is ours to do and what is not ours to do. How long can you be quiet? How often do you seek out the silence? Balance and harmony come to those who wait quietly for the mud to settle and the water to clear. And all of that, and all that follows, is up to us.