December 18-A, 2022

Baxter Creek Bridge Oil Paint Rendered — Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Big Creek District, Waterville, North Carolina
Deciding what to do
is largely a matter
of waiting to see
what needs to be done.

The natural world spends
a lot of time between things,
waiting.

We do not have to be constantly active
in the service of looking like
we are doing something
to avoid being thought of as lazy.

We can allow what needs to happen
to inform our actions,
and explore how our anxiety
drives us to act for the sake of acting
when nothing is actually called for.

Too often, we are trying to please
someone who isn't there,
like our long dead father, or mother.
Haunted by memories of their 
disappointment in us,
dissatisfaction with us,
trying to please them even now,
even yet,
for what, we do not know.

The desperate need to please
someone who cannot be pleased
is crazy.
It could be time to call out 
the facts for what they are,
and be clear about our motives
and about the time that is at hand
regarding what it needs from us
and how we can best meet those needs,
with the right thing,
in the right place,
in the right way,
at the right time.

Knowing it is just fine
to wait between things
like every other sentient being
on the planet. 

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Published by jimwdollar

I'm retired, and still finding my way--but now, I don't have to pretend that I know what I'm doing. I retired after 40.5 years as a minister in the Presbyterian Church USA, serving churches in Louisiana, Mississippi and North Carolina. I graduated from Austin Presbyterian Theological Seminary, in Austin, Texas, and Northwestern State University in Natchitoches, Louisiana. My wife, Judy, and I have three daughters and five granddaughters within about twenty minutes from where we live--and are enjoying our retirement as much as we have ever enjoyed anything.

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