December 01, 2021

01

Scrapping Fall 14 11/17/2021 Oil Paint Rendered — Carolina Thread Trail, 12-mile Creek Segment, Waxhaw, North Carolina
We were born wanting,
but not knowing what to want,
and rarely wanting what we should want,
but always, always,
having to have whatever we want,
everything we want,
NOW!

Particularly our way.
We always, always, 
want our way NOW!

What does wanting know?
It doesn't know how to stop wanting?
It just knows wanting.
Incessant, insatiable, unrelenting, non-stop 
never-ending, wanting.

For what?
For why?
For getting, having, owning, wanting more.

For all of our wanting,
we never seem to get tired of wanting more,
or wanting to be rid of wanting.

Who ever wants to be empty of wanting?
To be free of wanting?
To want to not want?
No more wanting?

What would we do with our time?
What would we do with ourselves?
What would we do?

Is "I want" all there is to us?
"Is this all there is?" (Peggy Lee)

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02

Sunset 02 11/05/2021 — Aho Valley, Blue Ridge Mountains, Boone, North Carolina
How quiet can you be?
How still?
How consciously empty
of desire,
fear,
duty,
anger,
hatred,
malice,
jealousy,
envy,
guilt,
shame?

For how long?

How often?

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03

Country Cemetery 08 11/19/2021 Oil Paint Rendered — Lancaster County, South Carolina
We have to create a crack
for the light to shine through.

By emptying ourselves of noise and complexity,
and sitting in stillness and silence,
waiting for the mud to settle,
and the water to clear.

Regularly,
routinely,
dependably,
deliberately,
over time.

It is to be our practice.

Being consciously
empty,
still
and quiet.

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Published by jimwdollar

I'm retired, and still finding my way--but now, I don't have to pretend that I know what I'm doing. I retired after 40.5 years as a minister in the Presbyterian Church USA, serving churches in Louisiana, Mississippi and North Carolina. I graduated from Austin Presbyterian Theological Seminary, in Austin, Texas, and Northwestern State University in Natchitoches, Louisiana. My wife, Judy, and I have three daughters and five granddaughters within about twenty minutes from where we live--and are enjoying our retirement as much as we have ever enjoyed anything.

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