August 11, 2021

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Falls Pond 03 09/24/2006 Oil Paint Rendered — Kancamagus Highway, Conway, New Hampshire
Our original nature
is the super hero
we have been hoping for
to deliver us.

We come forth from the womb
with everything we need
to find what we need
to do what needs to be done
in each situation as it arises
throughout our life.

Adam and Eve were Jesus of Nazareth
and turned away from the adventure
they were born to live
because it wasn't what they had in mind.

Story sound familiar?
It should.
It is our story.
Nope. Not that life.
We all said.
This life! This is the one I want!
And we cut ties with our original nature
and freelanced it into the far reaches
of the wasteland.

Look around.
If this isn't a wasteland,
I'm hallucinating,
because I see a wasteland
rolling out forever 
in all directions.

It's time to find our way back
to the face that was ours 
before we were born.

You have probably heard me say it before,
here it comes again:
The way back to Eden 
winds through the heart of Gethsemane
and across the face of Golgotha.

That means we have to die to the life 
we have in mind for ourselves,
in order to live the life our original nature
was born to live,
the life that still waits to be lived--
even now, even yet.

We have what remains of the time left for living
to reconcile ourselves with the life 
that is our life to live,
put ourselves in accord with The Way
that is our way out of the wasteland
into the land of promise
for those ready to do what needs to be done,
when it needs to be done,
the way it needs to be done,
because it needs to be done,
using the gifts of our original nature,
for the joy of doing the work
that is ours to do,
and the satisfaction of having done it,
moment by moment,
through all the days that lie ahead--
beginning right here, right now.

We live in an emergency room
with exactly the gifts needed
by everything that comes through the door.
It only takes believing it,
and living as though it is so,
for it to be so
every day.

Stop thinking "original sin,"
and start thinking "original nature,"
and let yours start making the difference
that makes a difference 
in your life and in the world around you!

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Reelfoot Lake 29 11/04/2015 Oil Paint Rendered — Reelfoot Lake State Park, Tiptonville, Tennessee
We find our way 
to the life that is ours to live
by paying attention
to what stirs our soul,
and to what nauseates us
at the very idea.

It is the Hot-And-Cold game
all the way to the grave.

Are we getting warmer or colder?

That is all we need to know.

To not know,
or to not care about knowing,
seals us into a lifetime
of rigor mortis
that is satisfied
with being dead long before our time--
and we become those
Jesus was talking about
when he advised 
leaving the dead to bury the dead.

We have from now 
until the time we actually die
to be alive in the time left for living--
by knowing what calls our name,
and living in its service
with each breath we take.

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Into Red Rock Canyon 03/28/2007 Oil Paint Rendered — Red Rock Canyon National Conservation Area, Las Vegas, Nevada
Developing our relationship
with our original nature
means developing our trust in ourselves
in giving rein to our spontaneous
sincerity and action.

Whatever is sincere--
without contrivance
or calculation,
and no idea of personal 
benefit, profit or gain--
and spontaneous,
is likely to arise
from deep within,
and is a reflection 
of our sense of what needs to be done
in the situation
that is unfolding before us.

As we trust ourselves to our inner sense
of what is called for,
we will be living from instinct,
intuition and grace,
without being able to explain
our motive or our reasoning
beyond saying,
"It felt like the right thing to do
at the time."

Living in the service of 
the right thing to do at the time
is the kind of life
that transforms the world.

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04

Ramsey Prong Bridge 03/29/2014 Oil Paint Rendered — Greenbriar District, Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Cosby, Tennessee
Carl Jung said, “It is the individual’s task 
to differentiate themselves 
from all the others 
and stand on their own feet...
To do this,
they must first return 
to the fundamental facts 
of their own being--
irrespective of all authority and tradition--
and allow themselves 
to become conscious of their distinctiveness."

To do this is to unite 
with our original nature,
which is the heart of Taoist teaching
from 3,000 years BCE.

We live to become who we are
within the context and circumstances--
the authority and traditions--
of the time and place of our life.

The work is eternal and on-going
between the individual's responsiblity
to himself/herself,
and their responsibility
to the culture of which 
they are a part.

This is the tension between
"the primary mask"
and "the antithetical mask"
W.B. Yeats identified,
between who we are asked to be
by the culture into which we are born,
and who we are asked to be
by our original nature
that we are born to exhibit and express
within the culture.

We are born to the struggle
of giving birth to ourselves
within a hostile and restrictive
environment.

And so, Jung can say,
“The idea of a second birth 
is found at all times 
and in all places. 
In the earliest beginnings of medicine 
it was a magical means of healing; 
in many religions it is 
the central mystical experience; 
it is the key idea in medieval, 
occult philosophy.” 

And, “As a pioneer, 
you must be able 
to put some trust 
in your intuition 
and follow your feeling 
even at the risk of going wrong.”

And, “The acceptance of oneself 
is the essence 
of the whole moral problem 
and the epitome 
of a whole outlook on life.” 

And, I would add, the summation
of our struggle to be healed,
and whole,
and saved,
and well.

Jesus said, "Why don't you judge
for yourselves what is right?"

"We are the sculptor
and we are the stone,"
(Alex Carrel)--
our work is to carve out
who we are--
to live out our original nature--
within the culture
that supports our existence.

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Appalachian Trail 06/06/2012 Oil Paint Rendered — Roan Mountain Highlands, Carver’s Gap, Tennessee
Martin Palmer translates the first
few verses of the Tao te Ching--
the ones normally rendered,
"The Tao that can be said/told/explained/defined
is not the Eternal Tao"--
in this way:
"The path that can be discerned as a path
is not a reliable path."

That is beautiful,
and puts me in mind 
of Jesus' statement,
"The spirit is like the wind
that blows where it will."

Not even the wind knows 
what it is doing next.
God's will is like the spirit
that is like the wind
that blows where it is called to go.

God's will is not some legal decree
set in stone through all of time,
the ten commandments not withstanding
(Jesus' "You have heard it said,
but I say unto you..." is evidence enough
of that).

God's will is born of the moment,
dancing with the time and place 
of its execution.
Now it is like this.
Then it was like that.
And in the future it will be something else.

And so, we have to be alert,
awake, aware,
because we do not know the time of our visitation,
or what will be asked of us then,
and in all times following.

What has been the case 
will not necessarily be the case.
We can't count on anything
but our sense of which way the wind is blowing,
our feel for what is being called for,
and our faith in our ability to dance 
to the tune of the here and now--
with Jesus' "Who do YOU say that I am?"
and his, "Blessed are you if you know what you are doing!"
ringing in our ears.

August 10, 2021

01

Morant’s Curve Train B Panorama 09/20/2009 Oil Paint Rendered — Banff National Park, Alberta
Religion exists by virtue of
extortion and bribery.

They both have temporal and eternal aspects.

Extortion's temporal expressions
take the form of shunning/banning/exclusion
and excommunication.
And its eternal expression 
is hell with its torture and anguish.

Bribery's temporal form is Baptism 
and Communion 
and their assurances of the blessings
of God's grace and forgiveness,
and the supportive presence 
of the Communion of the Saints.
And its eternal form is the promise
of the glories of heaven everlasting.

There is something to get from religion,
and something to avoid having.
That is why we should be religious.

Spirituality takes the AA path
of "attraction not promotion/coercion,"
and trusts the joy and satisfaction
of living out of our own original nature
to be enough to keep us involved 
with the tasks of spiritual practice.

"Sincerity and spontaneity, 
not contrivance/exploitation/manipulation"
is the anchoring orientation of spirituality,
which eschews theology, doctrine, and dogma
in favor of the personal experience
of numinous, ineffable, reality
through art, music, nature
and the right kind of relationships with other people,
as the means to find the support necessary
to sustain adherents path through life.

Believing that the way we live matters--to us
and to "The Way"--and having faith in oneself
to have what is needed to find what is needed
to do what needs to be done
in each situation as it arises,
lead to the realization 
that we already are spiritual beings.

Knowing that is to take up the work of being who we are--
finding and living our life--
the life that is our life to live,
by doing what has life for us
within the context and circumstances of our living.

Balancing the opposites,
integrating the contradictions,
bearing the pain of polarities and contraries,
in harmonizing the forces of good and bad,
right and wrong, etc.
within all the relationships t
hat define and limit our life.

Our spiritual practice comes down to
understanding that we all are Sisyphus
rolling his rock up the hill,
following it down the hill,
to roll it back up the hill,
and that the real work of being Sisyphus
is to develop an attitude and demeanor 
that allows us to accept our work
and find joy, satisfaction and purpose
in our life 
throughout the time left for living.

Saying, "YES!", to life just as it is
is the spiritual task of life,
and it is the simple secret
of being fully alive in the life 
that is ours to live,
in each situation as it arises.

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02

Dogwood View 01 04/17/2008 Oil Paint Rendered — Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Gatlinburg, Tennessee
The ground of happiness,
joy and satisfaction
is found in living 
to honor,
exhibit
and express our original nature
("the face that was ours
before we were born)
within the context and circumstances
of our life,
by serving and sharing
the gifts/daemon(sounds like "diamond")/
shtick/specialties/qualities/virtues/
knacks/interests/etc
that came with us from the womb
in each situation as it arises
all our life long--
by doing what needs to be done,
when it needs to be done,
where it needs to be done,
the way it needs to be done,
because it needs to be done
for the joy of doing it
and the satisfaction of having done it,
moment by moment,
day by day,
forever.

If you can do better than that,
do it!

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03

Foggy Morning on Lake Brandt Oil Paint Rendered — Greensboro, North Carolina
Blaise Pascal wrote (in 1654), 
“All of humanity's problems stem 
from man's inability to sit quietly 
in a room alone.” 

Adam and Eve were sure 
they could improve on Paradise,
and we have been at it ever since.

"Making Things Better"
could be the motto of every age.

All the wars,
and the genocide,
and the crusades,
and the heresy trials,
and the witch hunts, 
and the colonization,
and the planned conquest of space...
are all about Making Things Better.

For whom?
By when?

The questions are not asked.
The quest has its own momentum.
All we know is we need some relief.
Our Spirit, Energy, and Vitality
have gone flat.
Our Balance and Harmony 
are tangled and fighting it out.
Anything would be better than this.
And off we go.

Even if we only take our mind
off our misery,
it will be worth it for a while.

We can't stand being alone
with our own company.

Let's have ourselves a little war.
Take over some nation.
Get our mind off our troubles
by making trouble for someone else.

It's the best we can do.
If we could think of something better,
we would be on it.
"Like the white on mashed potatoes."

Blaise Pascal was talking about us.

We are a dissatisfied lot.
And need to be entertained,
distracted, cheered-up.
Continually.

Maybe, if we sought the Center,
we could find all the adventure
we can manage
stirring within.

Who is game?

The chase is on!

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04

Lake Martin Sunset 02 05/24/2015 Oil Paint Rendered — Beaux Bridge, Louisiana
What's your shtick?
Your specialty?
Your "thing"?

What is "it" for you?
What makes your little heart sing
and your little toes dance?

What is  your deep joy
and the love of your life?

What, when you are engaged in it,
makes time stand still,
or makes the minutes fly by
so that you can't believe
how long you have been at it?

How do you build your life around it?
How do you blend it into your life?
How does your life harmonize
with your bliss
to create rapture and radiance,
wonder and beauty?

If you know what I am talking about,
keep doing what you are doing!

If you have no idea of what I am talking about,
ponder the matter of your soul's true joy,
and see where you are blocking the way,
turning aside from the path,
and refusing to follow the impulse
of your heart's true love.

And get with the program!

August 09, 2021

01

Morant’s Curve Train C Panorama 09/20/2009 — Banff National Park, Alberta
We keep looking for something
to make it easy to grow up,
while avoiding the matter
until we find what we are looking for.

All it takes is standing up
and doing what needs to be done.
Time after time.
Without emotional response.

We spill the milk.
We clean the milk up.
Period.
No remonstrating.
No drama.
No whining.
No moaning.
No complaining.
No rolling in the floor crying.

We look for solutions to problems
and go down the list
until we find what works
with all things considered.

Growing up is a matter of 
sizing things up
in each situation as it arises,
and doing what needs to be done,
the way it needs to be done,
when it needs to be done,
because it needs to be done,
moment by moment,
day by day.

This is also the central feature
of a life grounded in the present
and doing what is called for
by the context and circumstances
of this time and place.

It doesn't matter what we want
or how we feel
or what mood we are in
or what the implications 
are for us personally.

What matters is responding to the moment
the way the moment needs to be responded to.

Like emergency room personnel 
greeting whatever comes through the door.

We live in an emergency room.
What happens throughout each day
is ours to deal with
in ways appropriate to the occasion
in each situation as it arises.

All. Day. Long.

That will grow us up
in no time at all.

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02

Charlotte Skyline 17 09/18/2017 Oil Paint Rendered — Romare Bearden Park, Charlotte, North Carolina
We have all we need
to find what we need
to do what needs to be done.

Always have,
always will.

What it takes 
to do what it takes
is the "Thy will not mine,
be done" mentallity
that is the hallmark
of the Garden of Gethsemane--
with the "Thy" understood to be
the situation at hand
and the Tao-Mind-Psyche-Awareness
that always has pace and timing
as its highest priority,
and knows beyond knowing
what is called for
in this time and place
for all times and places
there ever have been or will be.

If you are going to take anything on faith,
let it be this,
and get "Thy will not mine be done"
down, operational and in place
for all the times and places 
of your life.

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03

Carter Shields Cabin 02 03/01/2014 B&W Oil Paint Rendered — Cade’s Cove, Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Townsend, Tennessee
Doing what needs to be done
with what we have to work with
in each situation as it arises
is always the challenge.

This is the choice of Adam and Eve
in the Garden of Eden
in each situation as it arises.

There is what needs to be done,
and what we want to do,
and what we have to work with,
and that's it.

It is never more difficult that this.

What are we going to do,
here and now?

The future hinges on the response we make
to the moment of our living,
moment-by-moment.

This is the choice of Jesus of Nazareth
in the Garden of Gethsemane
in each situation as it arises.

It is never more difficult than this.

What are we going to do,
here and now?

Everything hangs in the balance.

Waiting.

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04

Geese on the Wing 02 01/11/2013 Oil Paint Rendered — Guilford County Wetlands, North Carolina
"Here we are, now what?"
is always the operative question,
in each situation as it arises.

It requires stopping, looking, listening,
to know what's what
and what needs to be done about it.

And the answer is always the same:
"The next thing."

The next thing, 
right here, right now.

Forget the overall response to the overall need.
Forget the general strategy necessary
for impacting The Situation As A Whole
nation-wide and world-wide.

Focus on the moment of our breathing,
of our being,
right here,
right now.

What is the next thing here and now?
Do that.

Without losing sight of the long term
and the bigger picture.

We walk two paths at the same time.
And the path to then and there
is also the path through the here and now.
Do not ignore the present moment,
absorbed in the ultimate and the absolute.

August 08, 2021

01

Scott Creek Panorama 03 01/29/2015 Oil Paint Rendered–Edisto Beach State Park, Edisto Island, South Carolina
Money is for buying the tools
and the wherewithal 
(Food, clothing, shelter, etc.)
required to do what is ours to do.

To do what we are here to do.
To do what we are uniquely suited to do.
To do what no one else can do
the way we can do it.

To find and do what is ours to do
the way the Pirate's life
was Captain Jack Sparrow's to do.

What is "it" for us in that way?
What is it that we have
no say in the matter about?

We are here to find and do it.

One way to think about 
what we are looking for
is "the creative fire."

What brings us to life in a way
that we are all together there,
participating in the act 
of bringing something new
into the world?

Something that wasn't there,
and wouldn't be there,
if it were not for us?

Could be an apple pie.
Or a pineapple sandwich.
Or the best curve ball in the business.

Only you know what your shtick is.
What your specialty is.
What brings you forth
and declares you to be fully present
and accounted for.

What are you doing when you are fully present
and accounted for?
How often do you do it?
For how long at a time?

Of course, there is a catch.
It asks hard things of us.
We may not be able to support
ourselves or our family by doing it.

It may "fill our hearts brimful,
and break them too"
(William Alexander Percy).

Carl Jung said,  
“There are hardly any exceptions 
to the rule that a person 
must pay dearly 
for the divine gift 
of the creative fire.”

At the bottom is the question,
do we have what it takes to say
"Thy will not mine be done,"
to/about the thing that is our thing to do,
and mean it?

Or, as I was want to ask
in a warm bed long before dawn,
with a sunrise in the mountains,
or cypress trees in the pond,
two hours away,
and maybe, just maybe
(Because who knows what the weather,
the sky, the lighting will be?)
offer a scene worthy of photographing,
"Am I a photographer or not?"

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02

Cade’s Cove Methodist Church 02/28/2014 BW Oil Paint Rendered — Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Townsend, Tennessee
My sister, Diane, died a week ago today.
She was 72 years old,
with no symptoms to speak of.

She waked into the bathroom
to take a shower,
and died before turning on the water.

No one is promised tomorrow,
or even the rest of today.

If you are going to do it,
do it now--
or, at least have a go at it.

Of course, the timing has to be right.
We are left between
not forcing anything,
and not letting anything pass us by.

Be aware of the tension,
and bear it with your eyes open,
waiting for the time to be at hand.

I would like to photograph a steam locomotive,
in full, smoking, glory--
and a rodeo,
but access is a problem,
and I'm bidding my time.
And may run out of time.
I'll have to wait to see.

I know what I am waiting for,
and won't let a proper occasion pass
untended or un-attempted--
if it is deserving,
and only I can determine that,
in the situation as it arises. 

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03

Carter Shields Cabin 01 B&W 02/28/2014 Oil Paint Rendered — Cades Cove, Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Townsend, Tennessee
If you think you have never learned anything
from listening to what you have to say,
why listen to yourself say that?

Why expect anyone to listen to you?

Why say anything ever?

All psychotherapy is based
on hearing what you are saying,
on hearing what your inner self is saying,
on listening to what your dreams are saying.

The root word of "educate" means to "lead out."

If we have never been listened to/heard
to the point of bringing forth
what is to be found within,
we might try sitting quietly
and watching for what arises/emerges/occurs
unbidden within,
and following where it leads.

This the ground of all art, science, 
poetry, song-writing and technology.
Invention and creativity come from people
listening to their instinct, intuition, imagination--
not from someone telling them what to do.

The idea that we are too stupid 
to know what's what originates
with people who have to be raised up
at someone else's expense.

Babies from the womb know what to do
with a nipple.
They don't have to be schooled on that.

Start with what you have to say about anything.
Ask all of the questions that beg to be asked
regarding that statement.
Answer them honestly as best you can,
and ask all of the questions that beg to be asked
of all your answers--
and of all the questions generated by your answers.
I expect you will be astounded
at the realizations
this exercise produces.

Then, make another statement
and give it the same treatment.

You are an amazing wonder unfolding as you watch,
astonished and unbelieving.
And you haven't scratched the surface.

August 07, 2021

01

Morant’s Curve Train A Panorama 09/20/2009 Oil Paint Rendered — Banff National Park, Alberta
Psyche-Tao-Mind-God 
(And where do those lines lie?)
don't seem to have any idea
of what they are doing.

The old Shaman and Taoists,
who got it started
5,000 years or so BCE
had no idea of a point.

Their basic thrust was,
"Don't try to make the world better,
just sick to the Way
(And "the Way" was very much
here and now,
day by day).

"Eat when hungry,
rest when tired,"
and "chop wood, carry water,"
were their focus and goal.

"Do now what needs to be done now,"
and "let tomorrow's trouble
wait until tomorrow,"
was their guiding mantra.

It would be a different world
if Al Gore had won the election.
Winston Churchill made all the difference
over his term in office,
Franklin Delano and Eleanor Roosevelt
made all the difference
during theirs.

After Dwight Eisenhower,
money called the political shots
and everything--and I mean everything--
was done,
not to make a difference,
but to make a profit.

"Profit At Any Price!"
has been Capitalism's motto
ever since.

Socialism is feared by the Capitalists
because profits would go down
if the people started benefiting
from the goods and services 
of government--
and that will never do.

And, here we are,
now what?

Now, we know that a difference 
not only can be made,
but also will be made,
for good or ill, 
depending on who and what
are making the choices
and leading the way.

And The Way has no real say
in that matter.
Psyche-Tao-Mind-God seems to be content
with the particular
with no interest whatsoever
in the general or the overall.

Carl Jung thought Psyche's goal
is "individuation"--
the individual's task 
of being the best they can be,
and "letting the outcome be the outcome."

Which is the theme of the Bhagavad Gita--
from around 400 years BCE,
and is the sum of the Hindu idea
of where things are going.

Christianity doesn't care about
making a global difference,
"Just believe in Jesus,
keep your nose clean,
and it all will be made up to you
in the coming Kingdom of God."

In the meantime,
Money Rules!
And all Money cares about
is Making More Money!

We can individuate all we want,
but the environment is going to hell
and taking us with it.

And Money is buying the votes
of the people who could put a stop to it 
if they were individuated enough
to draw the right lines
consistently,
reliably,
over time.

Which takes focus, 
concentration,
awareness
and commitment to a cause
that will last longer 
than they will live.

Money is betting on that 
not happening.

And that looks like a safe bet to me.
And the end of the world as well.

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Around Price Lake 30 10/17/2016 Oil Paint Rendered — Blue Ridge Parkway, Blowing Rock, North Carolina
The American Indians had it made
until the American Calvary road into their life.

It's always something.
To disrupt and scatter,
pillage, plunder, destroy.

We are always having to deal with something.
Something we don't like
and wish weren't there.

It's what we do best.
It's what we are built for.
It's our shtick. 

You might think we would have settled 
into it by now,
but noooooo.
We always act like it is the very first time.

We flounder, and flounce and wail
forever,
and then we get up and do
what needs to be done.

As a species, I'm talking about.
Individuals, not so much.
Individually, we have a hard time
getting past disappointment and dismay.

We could work on that.
It would give us focus and direction.

Managing our life and our attitude,
day-to-day,
actually, moment-to-moment,
would be an improvement.
We think things are going to be like this
and they are like that,
and we become undone
like that.

We start with squaring ourselves up
with the here and now,
the right here, right now--
with what is happening 
and what needs to be done about it,
and doing it the way it needs to be done
in each situation as it arises.

Without taking our eye off
the over-all situation regarding
our life in the world,
and what needs to happen there
for the good of the whole.

We have to walk two paths at the same time,
maintaining our balance and harmony
on both paths at all times.

It requires awareness/focus/attention.
And distance from emotional involvement
with what is going on on either path.

Emotional involvement is having a vested interest
in the outcome.
It is having an agenda.
A plan.
A way.
My Way.
Now!

My Way Now! is the source of all of our problems today
everyday.

Can't have a Way on The Way.

On The Way, 
it is always, "Okay, now what?"
And doing it as it needs to be done
in light of the situation as a whole.

Our will does not matter.
We have to set ourselves aside
in sincere service to the good of the situation
before us right here, right now.

We have such a hard time
with this simple concept.
Our Way Now means too much to us.
Growing up is getting over that.
And growing up is so very hard to do.
It is the hardest thing.
And the thing that matters most.
The thing upon which every other thing hinges.

If you are ever going to do anything,
let it be growing up!
Everything else will fall into place
around that.

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03

Around Price Lake 04 10/17/2016 Oil Paint Rendered — Blue Ridge Parkway, Blowing Rock, North Carolina
My intentional focus
directing my life
through every situation that arises
is to see what I am looking at
and to do what needs to be done about it,
with the right attitude/spirit/frame of mind.

Noticing and being disappointed
in my failure to do this,
helps me be better at it.

It is like learning to make really good
chicken noodle soup
by making a lot of bad chicken noodle soup
and letting your mistakes and errors
guide and direct your choices and actions
the next time you make chicken noodle soup.

We are making chicken noodle soup here.
Compassionate,
non-judgmental,
awareness guides our way.
And recognizing mistakes and errors
is not to judge mistakes and errors
in such a way as to interfere
with your ability to live in light
of what needs to be done
in each situation as it arises,
but in such a way as it guides
each step along the path.

This reminds me of Jesus saying,
"Judge not that you may not be judged,"
in one minute,
and saying,
"Don't cast your pearls before swine,"
in the next.

Discernment carries us forward,
moment-by-moment,
day-by-day.

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04

Beidler Forest 09 11/22/2019 Oil Paint Rendered — Francis Beidler Audubon Center, Four Hole Swamp, Harleyville, South Carolina
We are killing ourselves
and destroying the planet
in the unrelenting quest
for an ever-increasing standard of living
and an always larger bottom line.
Money wants more money all of the time.
There is no limit to our 
money-hunger
and it is killing us.

Greed at once runs and ruins the world.

If you want to fix something,
fix that.

There is no fix to that.
And, so, we have to turn
to a higher power.

We have to call on the Psyche
to help us stop ourselves.

It works the other way.
The Psyche is geared to helping us
stop ourselves
when it comes to ignoring our Original Nature
and merrily going our own way.

This is the story of the Garden of Eden,
which can be read as Psyche abandoning 
us to our insatiable desires,
and saying, in effect,
"Okay. Now see how you like having your way
all of the time!"

We have reached the limit of time allowed.
We are creating a world we cannot live in.
We are destroying, not only Eden,
but everything else as well.

The environment is gearing up
to bring an end to life on the planet,
and starting over
without the human element.

We need the Psyche to stop us
before we stop ourselves,
though it may be too late.
It has been calling to us
all these years.
Now it has to stop us altogether.

The COVID Variants may be the plan.

The Psyche has to become the active agent
in stopping the madness of Greed encroachment
into all aspects of life.

It could do so by restricting our swallowing
and limiting our breathing
until we change our mind about what is important,
and start living within limits acceptable to the planet
around the world.

Psyche ought to know where to draw the lines,
and we could learn to live within them,
if our ability to swallow and breathe
were severely hampered.

That would get our attention,
and require immediate action.
The way of Jungian analysis 
and individual adjustment
is taking too long,
and was globally ineffective
from the start.

We need a world-wide plague
starting right now.

If the Psyche cares about what is good for us
and the planet,
it will be bad for us
starting right now.

Well?

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August 06, 2021

01

Dandelion 01 Oil Paint Rendered
There is what we do to pay the bills,
and there is what we pay the bills to do.
Which is the most important?
Which is the easiest?

Everybody thinks money 
is the most important thing.
Few people have a clear understanding
of what money is for.
Of what bills are the right bills,
and what bills are the wrong bills.
Of what we need money 
in order to do.

We have to work this out 
for ourselves.

What are we paying the bills to do?
What MUST we do with our life?
What are we here to serve and to do?
What MUST we do?

"I have no say in the matter, Gibbs.
It's the pirate's life for me. 
Savvy?" (Captain Jack Sparrow)

What matter is it
that we have no say in?
What is the equivalent 
of the pirate's life for us?

Then comes the question
of how much money we will need
to do that,
and what can we do 
to make that much money.

And we cannot think our way
to the answers!

We feel our way there.
We live our way there.
We have to start paying attention.

What has always been "it" for you?
Start with that
and see what emerges,
arises,
appears,
occurs to you
as you circumambulate 
what has always been "it" for you,
waiting to see what comes to mind.

Carry this with you through each day,
wondering,
imagining,
woolgathering,
looking,
listening,
musing on
what for you is 
what a pirate's life was
for Captain Jack Sparrow.

That is the treasure you seek.
Everything falls into place
around that.

Don't stop questing 
until the deed is done!

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02

Reelfoot Lake 28 11/04/2015 — Reelfoot Lake State Park, Tiptonville, Tennessee
Laughter and tears,
tears and laughter,
say it all.

As much as can be said.
As much as needs be said.

But.

They have to be the 
right kind of laughter,
and the right kind of tears.

That's the stipulation
that transforms the game.

It isn't just about laughing and crying.
It is about laughing and crying
from the right vantage point,
with the right perspective.

With the perspective
that sees rightly
and knows truly,
so that you have no alternative
but to burst forth
in laughter or tears
or both.

Laughter and tears 
go where words cannot follow.

"The Tao that can be told
is not the eternal Tao."

"The path that can be discerned
is not a reliable path."

We have to live our way there,
with our eyes open.
Slip sliding all the way.

Which is, itself,
a fit occasion
for laughter and tears.

As all occasions are,

Because all occasions,
and every single thing,
are truth waiting to be seen
and received
with laughter
and with tears.

August 05, 2021

01

Blue Ridge Sunrise 10/07/2011 Oil Paint Rendered — Thunder Hill Overlook, Blue Ridge Parkway, Blowing Rock, North Carolina
We like our heroes 
to be without vulnerability.
How heroic is that???
You couldn't help being a hero
without vulnerability!

Anybody could be Jesus as God's only son.
Try it without those super genes!
Different story.

And while we are on that story,
what is it about God demanding the sacrifice
of (his) only son
in order that (he) might be appeased?
Does anybody else see how crazy this is?

This is the story the church invented
to give it the power of mediating
the forgiveness/grace of God upon those
it deemed to be worthy,
as it played the bribery (heaven),
extortion (hell) hustle
from that point on to this very day.

Another reason to ditch the church
and become Jesus without the genes!

Becoming Jesus without the genes
is embracing vulnerability 
as did the one who was born in a manger,
came from Nazareth of all places,
(Nothing good came from Nazareth, you know.
Nazareth was at the bottom of
all of the shit-hole places of the day),
and died on a cross.

That is the kind of hero the world needs more of! 
That kind of hero simply goes through life
doing what needs to be done,
when and where it needs to be done
(Which is always here and now!),
the way it needs to be done,
because it needs to be done,
with no idea of profiting in any way
from having done it.

Doing that throughout our life is the heroic task!

Think it's easy?
Hop on its back
and tell them to open the chute.

See how long you last 
before you start looking
for what's in it for you.

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02

Smoky Mountain Twilight 11/06/2007 — Clingman’s Dome (Parking Lot), Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Cherokee, North Carolina
People have ideas for my life
that don't dovetail
with my ideas for my life.

My brother leads the way
with the perfect response
to that situation.

He says simply,
"That's a terrible idea,
and I'm not going to do it!"

Beautiful.
Of course, he is well-grounded
in who he is,
and isn't concerned about
taking care of people 
who are old enough 
to take care of themselves,
and isn't interested 
in being moved beyond himself
without good cause,
like, "The building is on fire,
and we have to get out of here!"

And, it helps to be well-suited
for the life you are living,
and at peace with your particular
order of the day
in a regimen that serves
your balance and harmony,
and sustains your 
spirit, energy and vitality.

Anything that disturbs the order
and disrupts the flow,
is a terrible idea,
and I'm not going to do it--
without exceptionally good cause.

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03

Smoky Mountain Fall 27 10/20/2017 — John Oliver Cabin, Cades Cove, Great Smoky Mountains National Park, Townsend, Tennessee
Blackmail, extortion and bribery
are the three most popular ways
of forcing people 
to do what you want them to do.

The mob uses all of them
as the occasion demands.

So does the church.

"If you don't do what I say do,
I'm going to tell God,
and ask him to punish you
with the Plagues of Egypt."

"If you don't do what I say do,
you are going to hell
where you will burn forever."

"If you do what I say do,
you will go to heaven when you die
and enjoy all of the pleasures
of the realm forever."

And then there are the tools of
excommunication,
shunning,
the rack,
and burning at the stake
tucked away in its repertoire,
just for good measure.

The church is a formidable force for good
in the world.
You wouldn't want to mess with the church,
any more than you would want to cross ways
with the mob.

I recommend keeping your distance,
and hope it doesn't come knocking on your door.

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04

Ridges at Sunset Oil Paint Rendered 11/06/2011 — Blue Ridge Parkway, North Carolina
Carl Jung said, “The development of personality 
means fidelity to the law of one’s own being.” 

And, “It is the individual’s task to differentiate themselves from all the others and stand on their own feet.” 

And, “Follow that will and that way which experience confirms to be your own.” 

We wake up by realizing there is the Me and the Not Me,
and that we are here to serve the Me
in ways that take the Not Me into account,
harmonize the opposites,
integrate the contradictions,
compromise with the mutually exclusive options
before us 
in the moment-by-moment
situations of life as they arise,
and make the peace
by being what is called for,
when it is called for,
how it is called for,
and consciously bearing the pain/agony/anguish
of the contraries
our whole life long.

We are the point at which
Psyche/Soul/Mind/Tao
meet the world 
of concrete, actual, tangible, factual, apparent reality.

It is our place to make it work.

This is the task of being human.

And we think it is about getting our way
and having it made.

The law of our own being
has to be acknowledged,
honored,
revered
and served.

All of the symbols of mythology and religion
fit into this scenario
to assist us with the work 
that is to be done.

It is our place to translate them
into the language of the times,
finding the equivalencies
and honoring the wisdom
lodged in them
through time immemorial. 

August 04, 2021

01

Grandfather Mountain 09-10-11 Panorama 10/17/2016 Oil Paint Rendered — Grandfather Mountain State Park, Blue Ridge Parkway, Linville, North Carolina
How do you maintain/restore 
your balance and harmony?

How do you serve/sustain
your spirit, energy, vitality?

These are the five indicators
of a life well-lived.
Without them in place,
you are faking it,
grinding it out,
looking for escape and refuge,
hoping for deliverance,
wishing you were dead,
or that somebody else was.

The times are always desperate
and the money is never enough
(Billionaires are always acting
as though they are just scraping by.
They worry about their money
more than poor people do.
It's Crazy-Stupid to the core).

Take a personal inventory
at least daily,
doing a check list
of the five markers:
___Balance
___Harmony
___Spirit
___Energy
___Vitality

And find what you need to do to
Serve
Sustain
Restore
Maintain
all five.

And do it.

At least daily.

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02

Tupper Lake Shoreline 09/28/2014 Oil Paint Rendered — Adirondack Park, Tupper Lake, New York
All it takes 
is being right about 
what needs to be done
and doing it--
in each situation as it arises,
situation by situation,
day by day,
year by year.

Nothing to it.

The easiest way to be right
about what needs to be done
is to be wrong about it
with your eyes open.

Time will tell if it is right or wrong.

If it is right, great.
If it is wrong, great--
that means you stop doing it
and start doing what needs to be done now.
That means doing what you think is right
and needs to be done.

Time will tell.
If you are right this time, great.
If you are wrong again, great--
that means you stop doing it,
and start doing what needs to be done now...

It's like this all the way to being right at last!

Only it isn't at last.

Then, you have to be right about what needs to be done
in the next situation as it arises,
and repeat the process
until you are right again at last.

Only it isn't really last.

Get it?

Do it!

August 03-B, 2021

01

Afternoon Trestle Oil Paint Rendered — Anne Springs Close Greenway, Fort Mill, South Carolina
Each situation gives rise 
to the next situation,
which makes each situation
the key to all that follows.

Doing this situation the way 
it needs to be done
provides the situation flowing
from this one
with a proper footing
to be what it needs to be
for the next one,
and so on to the end of the line.

What we are doing,
situation by situation,
is passing on what has been
handed to us
and giving it the best send-off
we can furnish.

How we respond,
here and now,
to what is happening
and what needs to be done about it
sets the tone
for what follows.

There are no throw-away moments!
We have to treat each one
as though it is our last one,
and "go out with a bang"!

We have to "show our stuff"
whenever the camera is rolling,
and the camera is always rolling.
How we live matters!

In every moment
of every situation.

Doing this scene right,
scene by scene,
makes the movie really special.

"The Princess Bride" comes to mind.
Or, "Oh, Brother, Where Art Thou?"
Or, "The African Queen"...
Or, the story of your life,
and mine.

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02

Indian Land Sunrise BW 05//07/2016 Oil Paint Rendered — Lancaster County, South Carolina
It is my work to say 
what I have to say,
and let it go.

Lao Tzu is credited with saying,
"More words count less...
Better to stop short
than to fill to the brim...
Retire when the work is done...
Know when to stop and step back...
Let nature take its course...
This is the way of heaven..."

Offer what you have to give,
and let that be that.

"Some kind of help
is the kind of help
that help is all about.
And some kind of help
is the kind of help
we all could do without"
(Shel Silverstein).

"Take what you need
and leave the rest behind"
(AA Slogan).

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03

Blue Ridge Fall 08 10/14/2014 Oil Paint Rendered — Blue Ridge Parkway, Julian Price Memorial Park, Blowing Rock, North Carolina
I miss Robin Williams,
and George Carlin,
and Princess Diana,
and Maya Angelou...

The list is long
of people who had perspectives
and personalities
that graced and blessed
everyone capable of being graced and blessed
all their life long.

These are the people 
who passed it along,
with "it" being the soul of life,
the heart of living,
the wonder and joy of being alive.

Living can take the life right out of us.
What do we turn to when we have nowhere to turn?
That is Joseph Campbell's line,
someone else I miss.

Heart is the hardest thing to find,
and the easiest thing to lose.

What keeps us going?
It cannot be artificial.
It has to be the real thing.
That is what the people who have "it"
pass along to the rest of us--
not what they have,
but what we have
that we don't know we have.
That's what they do for us.
They show us who we are capable of being.

What we see and admire in them
lies latent in us,
stirring to life in their presence,
hoping we will be like them
in becoming who we are,
singing our own song,
as they sang theirs.

They show us what can be done
if we but trust ourselves
to bring forth what is ours 
to share and to serve
in the time left for living.

That would be our perspective
and our personality.
Our unique way of seeing and doing,
of being and becoming,
of exhibiting and expressing,
who we are
and how we love what we love
in doing what is ours to do.

We have to take what they give us--
what they represent to us--
and live as those who would 
find in ourselves
what is our truest treasure
and offer it freely
to all who come our way.

We are all capable of being
lights shining in the darkness.
We all have the gifts 
that are ours to give,
waiting to come forth
as blessing and grace
upon those who are dying
for what we have to offer.

It becomes so
when we live as though it is so.
Believing is doing.
Life is waiting to be lived
in the time left for living.

We are burning daylight,
waiting on a savior,
when we are what we are looking for,
and always have been.

What do we turn to when we have nowhere to turn?
What has heart for us?
Where do we come to life?
Where is our joy and satisfaction to be found?

We have to live from there
in bringing forth what we have to give,
and finding, in so doing,
all that we need
to do what needs to be done
in each situation as it arises.
World without end.
Amen.

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04

Blue Ridge Fall 10/17/2016 Oil Paint Rendered — The Viaduct is hiding in the center of the photo, Blue Ridge Parkway, North Carolina
The old Chinese Taoists
knew 3,000 years before Jesus was born
that the drift of our life
is to be trusted above all else,
and assisted by our awareness,
support, participation, trust,
loyalty and devotion
by doing what is ours to do
in the service of what needs to be done,
and letting that be that--
with no contrivance,
no manipulation,
no exploitation,
no pushing, forcing, scheming, striving
to make things happen out of time and place.

Just listening, 
just looking,
just seeing,
just hearing,
just knowing,
just doing what is called for
in the time and place of our living.

"Eat when hungry,
rest when tired,"
"chop wood,
carry water,"
respond to the moment
the way the moment needs 
to be responded to,
and stay out of the way.

5,000 years have not improved
on this fundamental orientation.

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August 03, 2021

01

Joe Pye Weed 08/07/3013 Oil Paint Rendered — Bass Lake, Blue Ridge Parkway, Blowing Rock, North Carolina
For forty years and six months
I talked to people about God
(I was a minister in the 
Presbyterian Church [USA]).
There was a problem.

Most of the people who paid me
to talk about God,
didn't want me to say anything
they hadn't already heard.

"Why don't you talk to us
about things we can understand?"
they said,
not realizing the paradox
they were proposing.

If I could explain to them
why I talked to them
about things they couldn't understand,
in a way that they could understand it,
there would not be a problem
with them understanding what I was saying.

However, not understanding applied to 
everything I said.

It isn't that I was speaking Babel.
It is that they were hearing Babel,
because what I was saying
was not what they were able to hear.

I cannot say anything to anyone 
who is not ready to hear what I'm talking about.
Who does not resonate with what I am saying,
and recognize the value of what they are hearing.
Our life cannot give us an adventure
we are not ready for.

The people have to be asking the questions
before the answers make sense.
I was giving them answers
to questions they were not asking.
And they were not interested in asking
the questions that needed to be asked.

For instance, "Who says so?"
That's the basic question.
Until we get "Who says so?" down,
we're wasting our time 
talking about God.
Or anything else.

The basics about God 
are "What does God want?"
("Who says so?")
"What is the point?"
("Who says so?")
"What is the place of the Bible
in getting us together with God?"
(Who says so?")
"What should we believe?"
(Who says so?")
"Who is the authority
in all matters pertaining to God?"
("Who says so?")

When we take "Who says so?" 
as the primary question to ask
of every statement about God/doctrine/the Bible/etc.,
and go through all of the answers,
asking "Who says that the people who say so
know what they are talking about?"
We get past the prophets and apostles,
the popes and the priests and the preachers,
all of Judaism and all of Christendom,
asking "Who says they know what they are talking about?"
to all of them,
we get down finally at the very end
to the declaration,
"I say so."
"I--I Am The One Who Says So!"

We say whomever we believe knows what they are talking about,
knows what they are talking about
because WE say so.

WE are the grounding authority
determining what is and is not the answer
to all of our questions.

WE are the ones who say so.

And we don't know.

Nobody knows.

If anyone knows what they are talking about.

The theology, doctrines, dogmas, catechisms, etc.,
are all held to be so
because of what somebody declares to be the authority,
but the authority is grounded upon
the people who say it is authoritative--
on the people saying it is authoritative,
because they (the people) say so.

The take it on faith.
And don't ask any more questions.
But, questions are the ground of being.

The people who advise taking it on faith 
because no one knows,
and not asking any questions,
do so because no one has the courage to say,
"We don't know."
"Nobody knows."
So they say, "We take it on faith,"
because that gets rid of the questions
and ignores the fact that no one knows
what's what about any of it.

People say "God said," but
how do we know they know
what they are talking about?
People saying, "God said,"
are just people saying, "God said."
But who knows?
All we know is what people say God said.

And, of course, they have the end-around to that.
They say, "Just believe and you will know
in your heart that it is so."

This is the ground of astrology, horoscopes,
fortune telling, superstition, voodoo, 
black magic, cons, frauds, and scams.

People believed witches into existence
and drowned them.
People believed heresy was demonic
and burned those they said were heretics
at the stake.

"Believe and you will know,"
is the heart of deception, trickery, 
falsehood and deceit. 

There is no ground to any of it.
That is what "Who says so?" reveals.

At that point, we are ready to throw
all theology/doctrine/dogma/etc.
into the burning barrel,
and look for what WE can say is valid,
real and true.

How does this strike you for that--
"It matters how we live our life."

"Who says so?"
Who would not say so?
It is obvious that how we live matters.
So, we don't sleep on railroad tracks,
and we don't jump off high buildings,
and we get the COVID 19 vaccines...
Because it makes a difference,
and it matters how we live!

Take "It matters how we live"
as the ground of true religion,
and ask, "How do we need to live?"
and we get, "In ways that are good for ourselves
one another, and the situation as a whole."

This is "Do unto others as you would
have them do unto you."

What is good for ourselves and others
is whatever needs to be done 
in each situation as it arises
in light of the true good 
of the situation as a whole.

Or, we could say, "In light of what is happening
and what is being called for in response,
here and now, in this moment!
What needs to happen?"

"Who says so?"
That would be each individual there, then.
How do they know?
"Only time will tell."
In the meantime,
we have to make our best guess.
And see where it goes.

If it goes badly, we will catch on to that,
and do what needs to be done
to correct things.

This is how it goes.
We decide what needs to be done
in each situation as it arises,
and we will either be right or wrong.

If we are right, fine.
if we are wrong,
we decide what needs to be done about it,
and do it.
We will either be right or wrong...

The situation is self-righting,
self-correcting,
if we respond to it in good faith
seeking what needs to be done 
then and there and doing it.

Good faith is the heart of true religion,
and a good faith commitment
to seeing and doing what needs to be done,
when it needs to be done,
where it needs to be done,
how it needs to be done
because it needs to be done,
in each situation as it arises
is all the faith anyone needs,
and everyone needs that. 

August 02, 2021

01

Wood Duck 02 05/14/2014 Oil Paint Rendered — Bass Lake, Blue Ridge Parkway, Blowing Rock, North Carolina
Your conflicts are killing you.

The typical way we deal with conflicts
is killing us.

We typically deny them,
run from them,
escape them,
ignore them,
pretend they don't exist,
and create conflicts
trying to get away from
our conflicts.

Conflicts multiply that way.
Pot and alcohol
are making things worse
by helping us feel better.

Feeling better is not getting better.

How long has it been since you
were conflict free?

Dead is conflict free.
Life, not so much.

Managing our conflicts
means reducing our conflicts
to a manageable level.

Means saying "No!"
Means drawing lines.
Oh, but "No!" and drawing lines
create such internal conflicts for us!

We have to deliberately create conflict
to reduce conflict.
We cannot run/hide/escape from conflict
and reduce conflict.
This is the first law of conflict reduction.

The first step in reducing conflict
is to take the first law of conflict reduction
to heart.
Grasp what it means,
and get to work.

Getting to work means sitting still,
being quiet.
Inviting all of your conflicts 
into your awareness.
You might want to make a list.
An actual list.

What are the sources of conflict
in your life?
Keep the list going over time.
Invite conflicts to present themselves
to you throughout your day,
Through your dreams at night
(They have been doing this for years,
but now you are going to start paying attention
to your dreams
and mining them for the conflicts
they reveal).

Catalog your conflicts.
Notice how one creates a multitude of others.
Notice how denying/hiding/escaping create
conflicts by the score.

Search for your easiest conflicts to resolve.
Start with them.
Use them as practice.

Your goal is to reduce the number of conflicts
in your life.
That means not adding any new ones,
and resolving current ones.

It won't take long to realize that
this means changing your behavior.
More specifically, it means
transforming your relationship 
with yourself,
your life,
other people,
particularly family members.

You might need a therapist
or a truly good friend
to help you with this
(Most "friends" are only interested in
using their relationship with you
to escape/avoid their own conflicts,
and are definitely not interested
in facing up to any of them, 
which means they cannot help you
face up to yours).

It takes courage, "true grit," 
and determination to see this through.
But it is the necessary first step
in reclaiming your life and living it
over what remains for the time left
for that kind of thing.

Your basic strategy is the 
"What needs to be done?" approach.
Here's the conflict,
what needs to be done?

Sit with the conflict and the question
in mind.

Do. Not. Try. To think your way to a solution!

Just with the conflict and the question,
and wait "for the mud to settle
and the water to clear."

You may have to get up and go on with your life,
but keep the conflict and the question with you
at all times.

Walk two paths at once.
Tend your business in "the world,"
and your business with the conflict and the question,
at the same time.

You are looking for realization to occur
of its own accord.
For something to stir to life,
arise, emerge, appear, as if by magic.

For a door to open where there was no door,
a path to appear where there was no path.

It may ask hard things of you.
Hard things are your new favorite thing.
Do what needs to be done.

Forever.

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Waterrock Knob Sunset 10-29-2014 Oil Paint Rendered — Blue Ridge Parkway, Maggie Valley, North Carolina
Carl Jung said,  “There is no balance, no system of self-regulation, without opposition. The psyche is just such a self-regulating system” 

I view the Psyche as an aspect of Mind.
And may constitute the whole of Mind,
so that Mind and Psyche are One.

It may also be that the old Chinese concept Tao
is one with Mind and with Psyche,
so that all three terms "mean" the same "thing."

I say "may" here because I cannot find a place
to draw lines between Tao and Mind and Psyche,
and all three terms seem to me
to be designations for our experience
with something other than ourselves--
something other than our ego-self.

And this "otherness" needs to be explored,
because I think it connects us with 
"all that has gone before."
And suggests a connection,
perhaps through DNA channels,
with instincts/intuition/knowing
that have a life of their own,
and is there for us all to partner with
in living our life aligned with,
in accord with,
The Way of the Whole.

Perhaps, there are no lines separating 
any of this,
and the Buddhists are right 
about all being One,
with us awash in a great
swirl of oneness,
where Psyche/Mind/Tao are experiencing
physical existence through us,
and are calling us to consciously/intentionally
place ourselves in accord with it/them
for the true good of the whole.

The Psyche/Mind/Tao are self-regulating systems
for producing in/through us
balance and harmony,
spirit, energy, vitality--
and it is our work to submit 
to the work of wholeness
in living lives of 
balance and harmony,
spirit, energy, vitality,
in and around,
above and beyond,
what we do day-to-day,
moment-by-moment.

Trusting ourselves to what we do not know,
for the lack of anything better to do--
and we have to wonder
what could possibly be better than this,
or more on the order of a Great Adventure
of a Lifetime?

We have to learn the Way of Alignment,
and find our way to the Beam of Life,
and stay on it (in it) forever no matter what!

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Union Pacific Lift Trestle 10 01/26/2017 Oil Paint Rendered — Red River, Alexandria, Louisiana
My next-oldest sister, Diane, died yesterday. 
Went to take a shower,
died in the bathroom,
probably from an aneurysm,
but that is to be determined.

There were five siblings,
three sisters 
and two brothers.
Now there are four living siblings.

I think that if we took a vote among us,
Diane would be a unanimous choice
for the hands-down hero among us.
Her heroism comes from doing the most
against the greatest odds
any of us had to work with and against.

Diane was my own personal wonder
at what can be done with practically
nothing in the way of external resources.
She called it all up from within.

We all started out with a father
who made it difficult.
Soft and gentle,
kind and caring,
are not terms we would use
in talking about him.

Emotionally (and occasionally physically) abusive
would be the relevant phrase.
None of us had an ideal beginning,
and we all did what we could with it.

Diane produced a life that was admirable 
by any standard,
with little help to speak of.

Only Helen Keller did more with less in my mind.

So I lift this day to her memory--
as I will with all days following this one--
with respect and honor for her
and the life she lived,
and deep regret and sorrow
regarding the un-lived life she might have had
with a father worthy of her.

August 01, 2021

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Jasper Wetlands 04 09/27/2009 Oil Paint Rendered — Jasper National Park, Alberta
In any situation,
there is what needs to be done
and what needs not to be done.
All we have to do is 
be right about which is which,
and do what needs to be done,
without a thought
for what is in it for us.

Our place is to be what the situation
needs us to be
with no interest
in how we might manipulate/exploit 
the situation 
for our good/gain/profit/advantage.

Sincerity and spontaneity--
not contrivance and deceit--
make all the difference
in making where we are
a good place to be
in each situation as it arises,
all our life long.

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Lake Haigler 01 08/22/2014 Oil Paint Rendered — Anne Springs Close Greenway, Fort Mill, South Carolina
It does not matter what we think,
what we believe,
what we want,
what mood we are in,
how we feel,
whether it is a good time for us or not.

All that matters is 
that we do what needs to be done,
where it needs to be done
when it needs to be done
the way it needs to be done
because it needs to be done,
without caring about
what is in it for us,
or what we stand to gain or lose,
by doing it.

Get that down and we have it made,
and the world has it made as well.

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Reelfoot Lake 17 11/04/2015 Oil Paint Rendered — Reelfoot Lake State Park, Tiptonville, Tennessee
Optimal is a range,
not a point.

It is a subjective range,
not an objective measurement.

It exists as an approximate,
and temporary,
location between less than optimal
and more than optimal--
for people who don't have much to do
beyond wondering about 
their present state of satisfaction
with their life,
or their degree of functioning/success
at what they are doing.

Reality is a similar range of subjectivity.
"Actual" and "apparent" and "illusion"
are words used in accessing reality
by those wondering how real something is.

How real something is
is how real we say it is.
A broken arm is more real than a broken heart,
though unless we experience both
at the same time,
we may be hard pressed
to determine which hurts the most.

Reality is more, or less, real
depending on how it is experienced
at any point in time.

Our experience of our experience
requires us to be present with our experience,
alert to our experience 
and aware of ourselves being aware
of our experience.

How often do we do that?
How long can we manage to maintain
that kind of focus and concentration?
For what purpose?
Who cares?

We drift through our life.
We hardly ever actually live it,
aware of what we are doing.

I sometimes look at my watch
without actually seeing what time it is.
Or eat lunch without tasting it,
unless it is really good or really bad.

Where are we when we are not here, now?
Why do we drift away?
Why do we live without knowing what we are doing?

How many years are we actually alive
in the life we are living?

How real are we really?
How real is "real life"?