February 02-B, 2023

Solitary Sandpiper 05/08/2013 Oil Paint Rendered — The Bog Garden, Greensboro, North Carolina
Be free to make mistakes
without being bound to them,
repeating them,
becoming them
to the point where your life
is just one continuing,
eternal mistake
in a Karmaratic,
helplessly incapable
of breaking out of the tradition
kind of way declaring,
"I'm nothing but a screw-up!
I've never been anything but a screw-up!
I'll always be a screw-up!",
glad to be relieved of the burden
of discerning what needs to be done
in a situation
and doing it.

Helping us to discern what needs to be done
in a situation 
and doing it
is what our mistakes are here
to do for us.

Our role is to become better
at knowing and doing what needs to be done,
one mistake at a time.

I hate that I made all the mistakes
I have made--
and recognize the place of each one
in enabling to be where I am today.

Mistakes are self-correcting
adjustment mechanisms
nudging us back onto the path
that can be recognized
only in hindsight,
situation by siutation
all our life long.

There is always something
about the last situation
that helps us improve 
our response to the next situation.

Recognizing that is 
what enlightenment is all about.

There is no steady state of being
called "Enlightened At Last!"

There is only seeing better 
what needs to be done
and doing it when/where/how 
it needs to be done,
one situation at a time.

It is all practice.
Performance is practice.
We are rehearsing
for the next scene
in this scene

Missing our cues
and forgetting our lines
are all a part of nailing our role
through scripts that change
and scenes 
that are nothing like
we expected
all along the way.


Published by jimwdollar

I'm retired, and still finding my way--but now, I don't have to pretend that I know what I'm doing. I retired after 40.5 years as a minister in the Presbyterian Church USA, serving churches in Louisiana, Mississippi and North Carolina. I graduated from Austin Presbyterian Theological Seminary, in Austin, Texas, and Northwestern State University in Natchitoches, Louisiana. My wife, Judy, and I have three daughters and five granddaughters within about twenty minutes from where we live--and are enjoying our retirement as much as we have ever enjoyed anything.

4 thoughts on “February 02-B, 2023

  1. I was just this minute cursing myself for being unable to even begin the first steps of a project. If I never start it, I can’t screw it up. Also, there was a point in my life years ago when I told myself, “well, I’ve made my bed, I’ll have to lie in it.” That philosophy held for nearly 25 years. Good grief. Thanks for the thoughts today. I need reprints.

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  2. We take ourselves with us wherever we go–we can make it better and we can make it worse by the way we deal with being who we are. Why not make it better? May we all take the better path to the end of the line!!!


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