We have to learn to live for something beyond our desire and fear (Joseph Campbell). But. We are sure there is nothing beyond our desire and fear. The First Death is letting go of our desire and fear. It is the first of many deaths all the way up to the Last Death, which is the transition point between conscious into unconscious, into the light that knows no end (and no beginning). We all come from the light, and return to the light (That's my opinion). And in-between, there is learning how to see what to value and how to know what's what and what to do in response to it, where, when and how. That is all life is good for. If we live learning that, we know things that cannot be known any other way. Which is true knowing. Stuff no one can teach us. To be known only by those who live their way there. Life is where light becomes enlightened by life, becomes aware of itself, knows itself as though for the first time. Life is where light wakes up. Or, comes back again for another round. Or, comes back again because its fun, or to learn more, or to do it again better. Light is all there is, and it can do what it wants forever. Knowing what's what is one of light's deepest joys and greatest pleasures, and purest delights. De light loves being delighted.