We have to trust ourselves to know what needs to be done until it becomes apparent that we don't. And then, we have to trust ourselves to know what needs to be done until it becomes apparent that we don't. And so on, like that. We learn to know what needs to be done over time. We learn to keep ourselves out of the way, and to know when we are getting in the way. And we cannot hurry the time of our wising up. So, we trust ourselves to know what's what until we know what's what. In the meantime, we know we are cultivating experience which is the ground of wisdom all along the way.
What is your specialty? Why are you here? What is the state of your balance and harmony? What would it take to bring them into an acceptable range? Carry these questions around with you. Keep asking them, and answering them. This process will keep you conscious of how you are living, and of how you might be living instead. As for me, my specialty is getting to the bottom of things. Is seeing what I look at. Asking the questions that beg to be asked. Saying the things that cry out to be said. Objecting. Complaining. Resisting. Calling things out. Serving truth. Bearing witness. Naming the contradictions. Making peace where peace can be made. Working out the conflicts. Smoothing out the wrinkles. Adjusting to what cannot be helped, or changed. Letting things be what they must be. Accommodating what must be accommodated... I am here to do all of the above. To bear witness. And call for alternatives. For awareness. For doing better. My balance and harmony are more stabilized now than ever because I am reducing the noise and complexity in my life to a minimum, and coming to terms with how things are and what can be done about it, and doing what I can think to do and letting that be that. I am doing what it takes to bring my balance and sanity into an acceptable range. Writing things out regularly helps immensely.
We live to die. Dying focuses our living and shapes our life. Knowing that we die creates an urgency about our life which compels those who are awake/aware/alive to use the time available to them to discover their specialties, their interests, their shtick, their original nature and the innate virtues that are theirs from birth-- that they might live in ways that are true to these things, serving and sharing them in each situation as it arises throughout their life, so that every day is a good day to die in that they have lived all their past days in ways that honor and express who they are, holding nothing back and doing what needed to be done when, where and how it needed to be done no matter what, and can die knowing they have lived well. May we all be able to do that very thing! Amen! May it be so!