April 12, 2022


Fire in the Sky 09/27/2011 Oil Paint Rendered — Peaks of Otter, Blue Ridge Parkway, Bedford, Virginia
Integrity requires
that we live to be who we are.

That we live aligned with that which is
deepest, truest, best about us--
serving and sharing the virtues,
that came with us from the womb.

That we are right about what is important
and live in ways that express it,
exhibit it,
honor it,
revere it
with devotion and loyalty
in all of our coming and going.

In order to do this,
and live in this way,
we have to reduce the noise,
and drama
in our life,
and increase the emptiness, 
and silence.

Developing and maintaining 
our relationship with what matters most
and with who we are,
and getting the two together
within the context and circumstances of our life
in each situation as it arises,
day by day.

It is never any more difficult than this,
and this requires intention,
and focus.

Comprising the work
of being an original human being.



Beulah Land 44 Oil Paint Rendered — Blue Ridge Parkway, North Carolina
Our original nature is packed 
with just what we need
to meet the moment as it arises,
and do what needs to be done
when, where and how it needs to be done
for no reason other than it needs to be done.

How long has it been 
since you did that?
Using only the virtues 
that came with you from the womb?

Just you.
Just as you are.
As one thus come.
Without motive.
Without agenda.
Without plan.
Without design.
With nothing to gain.

How long has it been?

What are you waiting for?



The Ghost Trees of Boneyard Beach Oil Paint Rendered — The Wasteland Collection, Botany Bay Plantation Historical Preserve, Edisto Island, South Carolina
Pay attention to the things you do
for no reason,
without thinking about it,
or being able to explain,
excuse it
on rational,

Where did the motive for that come from?
What was the origin of the action?
responses to our environment
come straight from our psyche/soul.

From the source of who we are
and who we are asked to be.

From the heart of life and being.

At the very bottom of it all,
we know what we are doing.
We know what needs to be done.
We know when and where and how to do it.

But something gets in the way.

Call it "The Profit Motive."

We live in the service of the gain,
the benefit,
the profit,
the advantage...

What's in it for us?

Ask somebody what they want,
and it is always the same thing
for everybody:

What does wanting know?

Billionaires have no reason for not having
How many of them are happy,
content and at peace with themselves and their life?

MacKenzie Scott is the only one I can think of.

The rest are all are striving to not pay taxes
and to gain more of the advantages,
and to be wealthier than anyone else
in the Group of the Rich and Lost.

The Wasteland is home to them all.

So, don't have to know what you are doing.
Don't have to be smart.
Don't have to be contriving some outcome.

Live to see what you do next.
What you do now.
Without having to have anything
come from it.

"Just because."
"For no reason."
"Just as we are."
"As one thus come."
Fresh from the womb.
Innocent as a lamb.
Doing just what needs to be done.
Without knowing why.
Or caring about it.

Why not?



Fogged In 09/30/2011 09/30/2011 — Skyline Drive, Shenandoah National Park, Virginia
We have to devote ourselves
to a practice that brings us forth
if we want to see.

I no sooner say that
than you begin to think,
"What would that be?"
Stop it.
You will never think of it.

If we want to see,
we have to move beyond 
the boundaries of thinking.

Look around.
Everything you see
is the result of thinking.
THIS is what thinking can do.
THIS is all thinking can do.
The best thinking realizes
thinking isn't the way,
and stops thinking.

When we stop thinking,
we open ourselves
to that which is beyond thinking.

The world beyond thinking is the world
we call "The Unconscious,"
because we are not conscious of it.

It is the world the ancient peoples
called "The Invisible World,"
because they could not see it
using their eyes.
But, they could see it using 
the eyes of their heart.

The Invisible World is the foundation,
the ground,
the source
of the Visible World.

We are to live in this world
of visible, concrete, normal,
apparent reality,
as extensions,
of that world of invisible,
unapparent reality.

The good ideas come from nowhere.
The bad ideas come from
the rejection of the good ideas.
From having a better idea.

Our story is the story 
of the Garden of Eden.
The Story of the Better Idea.

It has never worked out so well,
but that doesn't stop us,
or even slow us down.
We know what it takes.
We know where True Value is found.
It is always More Of What Has Never Been Enough!

And no one can talk us out of it!
So, here we are.
Having to devote ourselves 
to a practice that will bring us forth
in order that we might see.
And we can't think it up.

We have to empty ourselves 
of all fear/desire (even the desire to be empty)/
and wait in the stillness 
and the silence
to see what arises/emerges/appears
out of nowhere
to call us, inspire us, compel us
to take up the practice that brings us forth.

"Darkness within darkness--
the gateway to mystery"
(Lao Tzu).

That's the Gateless Gate he's talking about.


Published by jimwdollar

I'm retired, and still finding my way--but now, I don't have to pretend that I know what I'm doing. I retired after 40.5 years as a minister in the Presbyterian Church USA, serving churches in Louisiana, Mississippi and North Carolina. I graduated from Austin Presbyterian Theological Seminary, in Austin, Texas, and Northwestern State University in Natchitoches, Louisiana. My wife, Judy, and I have three daughters and five granddaughters within about twenty minutes from where we live--and are enjoying our retirement as much as we have ever enjoyed anything.

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