Jesus would say there is a price to be paid for living true to our original nature in each situation as it arises. And, he would say there is a price to be paid for failing/refusing to live true to our original nature in each situation as it arises. Then, he would say it is up to each of us to work out for ourselves the kind of death we are going to die in each situation as it arises.
Reflection leads to realization. How much time do you spend in reflection each day? What are your favorite springboards into reflection? Where do you like to go for reflection? How devoted are you to working reflection into your life? How long has it been since you have deliberately, consciously, engaged in reflection? What are your questions? What are you curious about? Use those two questions as starting points for reflection, and see where it goes.