We find the harmony, and it finds us. But, we don't go looking for it. We open our eyes and there it is, looking for us. Waiting on us. It is there all along, waiting. For us to open our eyes in just the right way, on just the right day, And there we are. Asking, "Where have you been?" Maintaining the harmony is also tricky. We do it by trusting the harmony and trusting ourselves, and dancing with what life brings us, with what we find in our path, with what the day delivers. Chasing after, and running from, are equally not recommended. Just waiting. Just watching. Just listening. Letting curiosity lead us along the way. Looking closer at what catches our eye. Listening attentively to what sounds interestingly intriguing, and perhaps like something we have heard before. Missed chances and ignored opportunities tend to circle back around wearing different clothes, wondering if we have what it takes yet. And hoping we do. Our place is to keep coming back ourselves, until we see/hear what is there at last. And move on to the next thing, and the one after that... There is always more to realize, more to hear/see, more to know, more to do, more to be. The boundaries of the soul, you know, are so deep and wide, eternity is not long enough to explore it all. And that is what eternity is for. Making connections. Drawing conclusions. Redrawing conclusions. Playing hunches. Waking up. Waking up some more. Again. And again... All the way. Better get a move on, by sitting still, and being quiet, and empty in the right kind of way. There is no time to waste. And no time like now to begin.
The wrong kind of emptiness is filled with arrogance, and terror, and self-assurance, and certainty, and conviction and hopelessness, and futility, and meaninglessness, and loneliness, and on and on like that... The wrong kind of emptiness isn't empty at all. And has to truly empty itself of everything. Absolutely everything. Beliefs, faith, hope, charity, fear, hate, greed... The right kind of emptiness is as empty as the pause between breaths, which, if you haven't been with me here for long, you get to on about the third breath, if you take three full breaths, extending your stomach on a slow inhale to full lung capacity, exhaling slowly expelling all the air by drawing your stomach in toward your spine, and pausing for a count of ten before repeating with a slow inhale. By the time you get to the third breath, the pause between breaths will be empty of everything but counting. Be there, still, silent, empty until some form of noise intrude and snatches you back to the world of normal, apparent, reality. The right kind of emptiness is as empty as the space between breaths without noise of any kind. Practice increasing that time until you can just be empty by not thinking about anything. That kind of emptiness is the fulcrum, the pivot point, the place of power, "the still point of the turning world" (T.S. Eliot), "the Axis Mundi," where it all begins, the silent stillness before the beginning... Being that empty is where it always begins. At the end of your rope be that empty, and wait, watching, for something to stir that you are not responsible for, and trust yourself to it, exploring, reflecting, wondering, seeing where it leads. The right kind of emptiness is the hope of the world. And it is the last place anyone would think to go.
We get ahead of ourselves, lose our place, drift away, wander off, forget what we are doing, and have to call ourselves back to here and now all of the time, forcing ourselves to recall who we are and what we are about and getting back in the game. Being clearly focused, present and accounted for, is not what we do best. Yet, it helps. Knowing what's what and what needs to be done about it, and doing it with the gifts/daemon/genius/etc. we bring with us to the moment, this moment, right here, right now, is the key to everything that follows, that flows from right here, right now. What is happening? What is called for? What are we going to do in response? The future hangs in the balance in every moment, waiting for us to be right about what we are being asked to do, and doing it. Starting now.
See what you look at. Ask all of the questions that beg to be asked. Say all of the things that cry out to be said. Know what you know. And what you don't know. Be empty, still and quiet in the right kind of way. See what's happening in each situation as it arises. Know what's what and what is called for and offer what you have to contribute to it out of the gifts/daemon/genius/etc. that comes with you from the womb, in doing what needs to be done, when it needs to be done, the way it needs to be done, to the best of your ability, no matter what, for the joy of doing it, and the satisfaction of having done it, "without hope, without witness, without reward" (Steven Moffat in Doctor Who), and let that be that, situation after situation all your life long. Everything else is a distraction.
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