September 07, 2021


Tobacco Barn 03 01/27/2012 Oil Paint Rendered — Guilford County, North Carolina
The truth is who we are,
and how well we exhibit that
in each situation as it arises
throughout our life.

We are here to bring ourselves forth.
To be who we are.
Within the times and places of our living.
All our life long.

How well we are doing that 
is evidenced
by our balance and harmony,
our sincerity and integrity,
our spirit, energy and vitality.

The people who are mostly dead
long before they die,
who are one cliché after another,
whose life is a habit,
who never do a spontaneous thing,
who never do anything new,
who do what they have always done
are the people who need to be
to come back and do it again
until they get it right.

We are here to birth ourselves
anew everyday.

The people who are so 
absolutely opposed to abortion
aborted themselves long ago,
and continue to abort themselves
every day
in denying themselves the right to life
by having an original though
or expressing their original nature,
or allowing anyone else to
in any situation as it arises.

Living by the Book, 
any book,
is the wrong way to do it.
Throw the book away,
and step into the next moment,
looking only for what truly needs to be done there,
and do it when it needs to be done,
the way it needs to be done
because it needs to be done,
and not because somebody else says so--
without any regard for what is in it for us,
our how well it meshes with our idea
of how things ought to be.

Things ought to be how they need to be,
and we ought to be able to know how that is.
Not because we have thought about it,
but because we see it and know it,
and trust ourselves to be right about it,
without having to take our cue 
from someone else.
Anyone else.

If we are waiting for someone else
to tell us what needs to be done,
we are aborting ourselves
denying someone else's
necessary abortion.



Blue Ridge Sunrise Panorama 10/12/2011 Oil Paint Rendered — Blue Ridge Parkway, Boone, North Carolina
No one lives without dying.

Maturation is the on-going process
of dying to one way of thinking,
to one way of life,
and coming to life in another.

Over the course of our life,
we die and come to life
again and again.

Changing our mind about
what is important
and allowing our life
to fall into place around that
through all of the stages
of our development.

To not do that is also to die--
a death from which there is no
return to life,
just an eternal refusal
to be alive ever.

Jesus died in Gethsemane,
and in his conversation 
with the Syro-Phonecian woman,
and his encounter
with the woman taken in adultery,
and at every turn in his path
toward Jerusalem
and Golgotha.

And he calls us to take up our own cross,
and step into our life
as he stepped into his,
and die all the way 
to life pouring out,
spilling over,
flowing freely
from one death to the next
in doing what needs to be done,
when it needs to be done,
the way it needs to be done,
because it needs to be done,
and no one can do it like we can,
no matter what.



Boone Fork Panorama 06/19/2009 Oil Paint Rendered — Blue Ridge Parkway, Blowing Rock, North Carolina
We are always making corrections.
Which means, we are always making mistakes.
Which means, we always 
are in the position
of needing to sit still and be quiet,
empty of all judgment and opinion,
open to the experience 
of "just here, just now,"
and able to respond as needed
to what comes into our awareness.

Awareness is continuing and ongoing. 
We hold everything in our awareness,
and add to it as time goes by,
allowing it to guide our response
to each situation as it arises,
without judgment or opinion,
just seeing,
just knowing,
just making corrections
and adjustments
to maintain our balance and harmony,
sincerity and integrity,
spirit, energy and vitality
in the service of what needs to be done
moment to moment,
day by day.

Published by jimwdollar

I'm retired, and still finding my way--but now, I don't have to pretend that I know what I'm doing. I retired after 40.5 years as a minister in the Presbyterian Church USA, serving churches in Louisiana, Mississippi and North Carolina. I graduated from Austin Presbyterian Theological Seminary, in Austin, Texas, and Northwestern State University in Natchitoches, Louisiana. My wife, Judy, and I have three daughters and five granddaughters within about twenty minutes from where we live--and are enjoying our retirement as much as we have ever enjoyed anything.

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