"It will all be fine as soon as everything starts going my way, and all these people get out of my way, and stop making noise and stirring up dust, and clamoring about getting their way!" This has become the international creed for all people everywhere. It is "my way" that is in the way for everybody. They blame it on "ego." "If that damn old ego would only get out of my way! Things would be fine. If I could just get rid of ego!" Everything is better with something or someone to blame. It lets "me" off the hook. Keeps "me" from having to change. Enables "me" to go on thinking the only thing wrong with "me" is all these people in "my" way. The only thing that all of our problems ever have in common is us. Changing things begins with changing "me." Where do "I" begin? Sitting still. Being quiet. Watching. Listening. Waiting. For the mud to settle and the water to clear. But that's asking too much. We want The Fix right NOW! We want. Fix that! We want NOW! Fix that NOW! Nothing happens until we stop wanting our way NOW! Until we stop wanting our way Ever Again! Nothing changes until we change. Until we change our attitude. Our perspective. Our point of view. Our idea of what is important. Our way of life. How different are we willing for things to be?
Mixed motives, compelling desires, competing interests, misplaced values, errant fixations, undisciplined drives, wandering thoughts, wavering commitments, confused directions... have us where we are today. It is time for us to do absolutely nothing more than sit quietly, be still, and watch all that arises within-- noticing how we are pushed to do the next urgent thing NOW! We are a yo-yo eternally at the end of its string, being pulled back up for another dose of down. Except. We can say stop. And no. And wait. And we can sit quietly and allow urgency to settle. As we simply breathe, and watch all the aberrant urges come and go. Waiting. For the mud to settle and the water to clear. We are not at the mercy of our pushes and pulls. We can wait and watch, holding everything in our awareness, not attached to anything, not emotionally hooked to anything, not controlled by anything... Effective working distance is the distance between having something to do and having to do something, anything, to quell the anxiety and the emptiness NOW! Sit still. Be quiet. Wait. Watch. For as long as it takes for the mud to settle and the water to clear. Notice: What stirs the mud? What muddies the water? What are the sources of upheaval, complexity and confusion in your life? Watch. Wait. Get something to eat, or drink. Go for a walk. Still waiting. Still watching. Still being still and quiet. Become the silent observer. The detached listener/seer. Notice what is pushing you, pulling you-- without being pushed or pulled. Just watching. Just waiting. For the shift to happen. For insight to form. For realization to occur. For the light to come on. For awareness to blossom. Like that. Like magic. Out of madness and gloom. See what needs to be done, and do it. From your center. Your source. Your original nature. Your heart. Your soul. Your self. Again. At last. As one.