November 19, 2024

A lot rides on 
how well we square
ourselves up to,
come to terms with,
make our peace with,
adjust to,
how things are
and do what we can about it
without making things worse
and ride it out.

But.

When we have had enough,
anything goes.

And.

When the time is right
and "enough" is close enough,
we take our chances
counting on our determination
to make it work this time
and tell them we are leaving the rodeo.

Staying or going is always rocky.
Too often, there is no way to be sure
where we are better off,
and thinking it out can take us only so far,
so we trust ourselves to 
emptiness, stillness and silence,
listening to our body's signals
including our nighttime dreams,
and go with what feels right,
knowing that we might be pin-balling it
through the rest of our life
one day at a time
when that sounds better 
than where we are.

Sure things are hard to come by,
and taking our chances this time
can be a way of knowing better next time.

Being ready to deal with what comes
and being willing to grow up some more again
"anyway, nevertheless, even so,"
help with the "now what" about every "here,now."