October 15, 2024 – A

I wish I had devoted myself
to the moment, 
this here, this now,
all my life long--
being what the moment called for
doing what the moment needed
to be done,
when, where and how it needed
to be done.

I wish someone had explained 
to me how utterly important that is.
I lived among people who did not know
themselves how important it is.
No wonder I am the way I am!

I threw every moment to the wind.
I trampled every moment underfoot.
I redrew every moment to match 
my idea of what the moment should be,
serving my interests,
meeting my needs,
being as I wanted it to be.

I was the master of every moment.
I am ashamed to say.

I want a re-do.
Another go.
Let's start over.
Beginning now.
I will honor every moment
from here to the end of the line
as the wonder it is,
a gift for me to open carefully
and to serve with all my heart
as it needs to be served,
the rest of the way.